drugs and sui

[KikoKiki]

I think this year I'm going to die. I've been using weed to help deal w shit and its working. I just feel like whenever I'm sober I end up one step closer to a attempt. Ive had two attempts this year that no one is currently aware of besides like one person. I don't know what to do. Im in a new clinic for my mental health shit and I think its helping a bit but I still feel hopeless. the person I was writing about and I are no longer together. even though I love him I think this is the end of the road for us. he claims that he loves me as well but It doesn't feel like it at all and we always have problems going back and forth.