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Pretty Dull

Pretty Dull

delusional
Jun 2, 2021
3
I went back to the bridge last night, climbed the barrier and looked down, the water too murky to see the bottom, I sat on the railing for an hour as my indecisive mind raced with reckless thoughts and chainsmoked a pack of menthols, pockets filled with weighted stones, and wondered if was I always destined to die at my own hands as I stare down at my final destination, my final resting place, a realm existing in another time and space, the depths of the water serenading me to my demise, I imagine the dead stars illuminating my rotten corpse at the the bottom of the lake, I always feel most at peace when I dream of an eternal sleep, I smoke the last cigarette in the pack and decide to live to die another day, the tortured soul of twenty years turns the other way
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
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I can relate.
Having lots of doubts and just telling ourselves "maybe another day" is perfectly normal.

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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An eternal sleep is what I want. Death makes all life meaningless and it is the solution to my problems. The thought of it comforts me. At least whatever happens it will come someday.
 
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