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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
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I know it's only Nov and there is Xmas in between (yuk!) but I am filled with utter dread when I think of NYE. That was basically the night & next couple of days that tipped over me over the edge in turns of my breakdown after months of acute insomnia & highly damaging advice from my doc to come off my meds suddenly. God I hope to be gone before then - I don't wanna be around for the same time of year that this all started!! :(
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
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The thought of entering another year and another decade like this has been giving me panic attacks recently. So I know how you feel. At Christmas I am at my lowest point and it's horrible.
:hug: :heart:
 
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Moonicide

Moonicide

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Nov 19, 2019
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I'm sorry you're dealing with this. The holidays are just so awful and triggering to many of us, we deserve some peace. And I hope we all find it. :heart:
I have no intentions of making it to NYE, let alone Christmas. But I'm sending lots of love and support for those that will be and are fighting every single day.
 
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