synthcadia
dissociated angel.
- Jul 8, 2023
- 271
recap of today since my post was moved: i don't know what is going on but it seems like my family has reduced from 4 people to 3. (to clarify, no one died. full context is here.) i woke up to people arguing and i felt so scared and my mom's eyes were so red and puffy from crying it hurts me.
anyway.
i just don't know how to feel, but all i feel is tiredness. like this is the last thing i needed. i feel like this is now starting my descent into the depression spiral. like idk.
i got no close irl friends who even fucking care it feels like, and i am tempted to just freeze everyone out and give up. i'm tired.
i am tired of this shit happening to me. so tired. i have enough energy to do homework i think. (i always do bc i am afraid of failure.)
also, i am more certain i have dpd. i still suspect bpd but my partner doesn't think though (since they have it), but idk tbh. i don't know what to think anymore.
anyway.
i just don't know how to feel, but all i feel is tiredness. like this is the last thing i needed. i feel like this is now starting my descent into the depression spiral. like idk.
i got no close irl friends who even fucking care it feels like, and i am tempted to just freeze everyone out and give up. i'm tired.
i am tired of this shit happening to me. so tired. i have enough energy to do homework i think. (i always do bc i am afraid of failure.)
also, i am more certain i have dpd. i still suspect bpd but my partner doesn't think though (since they have it), but idk tbh. i don't know what to think anymore.
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