ImpairedLowlife
Empty and hollow
- Aug 3, 2020
- 401
At first, I wanted to title this "2025 was such a pale year" but realized, it was not that terrible, but still felt like the least interesting or unique year so far.
On the positive side, I've recovered from a broken arm, got a new keyboard, scheduled a very important (for me) plastic surgery for 2026, after many years, finally got braces installed and even tried psychedelics and it was a positive experience.
This doesn't sound all too bad, but still, this year felt like... mental fog(?). Feels like nothing really happened and nothing meaningful will ever happen again. Just everlasting stale emptiness. I'm trying to remain hopeful this was just a "filler" year to the brighter future, but it doesn't seem so. It feels like true life ended a few years ago and now it's just an endless emptiness and numbness.
On the positive side, I've recovered from a broken arm, got a new keyboard, scheduled a very important (for me) plastic surgery for 2026, after many years, finally got braces installed and even tried psychedelics and it was a positive experience.
This doesn't sound all too bad, but still, this year felt like... mental fog(?). Feels like nothing really happened and nothing meaningful will ever happen again. Just everlasting stale emptiness. I'm trying to remain hopeful this was just a "filler" year to the brighter future, but it doesn't seem so. It feels like true life ended a few years ago and now it's just an endless emptiness and numbness.
