dont know how to ctb

[39hatsune]

i was gonna lay on the tracks but the more hours pass the more i am worried that i will survive with some horrible injuries and be left permanently disabled. i really really wanted to go via sn but i dont have any money right now, i still live with family so i dont know where to deliver it to let alone where to even order from. ive overdosed twice on like otc stuff which obviously didnt work lol

are there any methods that have a high chance of killing me, or if it fails, the consequences arent too bad

i dont know anymore

 

[39hatsune]

Thread 'Full Suspension hanging method I want to share.'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/full-suspension-hanging-method-i-want-to-share.229203/

thank you

 

[Realog11]

i was gonna lay on the tracks but the more hours pass the more i am worried that i will survive with some horrible injuries and be left permanently disabled. i really really wanted to go via sn but i dont have any money right now, i still live with family so i dont know where to deliver it to let alone where to even order from. ive overdosed twice on like otc stuff which obviously didnt work lol

are there any methods that have a high chance of killing me, or if it fails, the consequences arent too bad

i dont know anymore

I remember a Russian girl who ctb by a train on the tracks

 

[39hatsune]

I remember a Russian girl who ctb by a train on the tracks

yeah i think i saw that too, i just dont want a chance of surviving where ill be mangled

 

[Realog11]

yeah i think i saw that too, i just dont want a chance of surviving where ill be mangled

Pretty sure you would only survive if the train is slow even then i seen people who have died by slow trains in videos

 

[39hatsune]

Pretty sure you would only survive if the train is slow even then i seen people who have died by slow trains in videos

maybe ill just try and get my hands on sn first

 

[Realog11]

maybe ill just try and get my hands on sn first

Ok

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also wish for the same, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access painless, guaranteed death so finally I can be free from this torturous, cruel existence, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[LastAcrobat]

I would generally stave away from any methods that directly or I indirectly require other people's actions (trains, cars, trucks, etc). Both as it can be a lot easier for things to go wrong and it can cause some of the people there to blame themselves and feel guilty (despite actually helping you).

 

[39hatsune]

I really understand, I also wish for the same, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access painless, guaranteed death so finally I can be free from this torturous, cruel existence, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

thank you and im sorry about your situation

I would generally stave away from any methods that directly or I indirectly require other people's actions (trains, cars, trucks, etc). Both as it can be a lot easier for things to go wrong and it can cause some of the people there to blame themselves and feel guilty (despite actually helping you).

yes you are right, im going to try and somehow acquire sn, or something else
i dont really know anymore

 

[Realog11]

thank you and im sorry about your situation

yes you are right, im going to try and somehow acquire sn, or something else
i dont really know anymore

I have a source for sn if you want it

 

[liza]

Same.

 

[39hatsune]

I have a source for sn if you want it

i think i found some too, its just money thats an issue for me lol

 

[Realog11]

i think i found some too, its just money thats an issue for me lol

My source is cheap 15 polish dollars for the sn but its just the shipping which costs 68 polish dollars

 

[39hatsune]

My source is cheap 15 polish dollars for the sn but its just the shipping which costs 68 polish dollars

im in the uk and found for £20, idk about the shipping i just dont have a job right now

 

[Realog11]

im in the uk and found for £20, idk about the shipping i just dont have a job right now

What sites in the uk have you found for sodium nitrite make sure it's not sodium nitrate

 

[39hatsune]

What sites in the uk have you found for sodium nitrite make sure it's not sodium nitrate

ngl i didnt look too much into it i just searched it up and it was some fishing website sorta thing, there was another but i think it only delivered to labs

 

[sanctionedusage]

i cant imagine possibly surviving a full speed train going over your neck tbh

 

[39hatsune]

i cant imagine possibly surviving a full speed train going over your neck tbh

yeah i agree, but the more i thought about it the more i realised i would probably give the conductor ptsd or something

 

[sanctionedusage]

yeah i agree, but the more i thought about it the more i realised i would probably give the conductor ptsd or something

or SI kicking in at the worst moment and leaving you scalped rather than beheaded

 

[39hatsune]

or SI kicking in at the worst moment and leaving you scalped rather than beheaded

yeah god

 

[TimingOut]

I remember a Russian girl who ctb by a train on the tracks

I remember people (Indians?) failed in rail suicide and turned up cut in half and still alive.

 

[39hatsune]

I remember people (Indians?) failed in rail suicide and turned up cut in half and still alive.

yeah i think ill try something where the consequences of surviving arent so extreme..

 

[TimingOut]

or SI kicking in at the worst moment and leaving you scalped rather than beheaded

Yes, i think the track would pass the massive energy to your body that's in contact with it so that your body will bounce up; or the turbulence will move your body away from the intended position; or if the driver slows down then the wheels will shove your body misaligned instead or rolling over it.

 

[Loner]

I just wanna be f-ing dead already. I am done with this sh-t. Depression and anxiety are killing me. Hanging is what I am thinking about doing. I just wanna be dead,100%.

 

[SadCryingBunny]

I just wanna be f-ing dead already. I am done with this sh-t. Depression and anxiety are killing me. Hanging is what I am thinking about doing. I just wanna be dead,100%.

Hanging is horrible, nitrogen can't pass out. Stabbing my thighs is too brutal. I'm hopeless

 

[Loner]

Hanging is horrible, nitrogen can't pass out. Stabbing my thighs is too brutal. I'm hopeless

I am thinking about partial hanging or charcoal method, or both. The thing is, at the end of the day, physical pain from committing suicide would not last that long and then no more suffering. That will be the end of everything for us. We just need the courage to do it. That's how I see it. I wish everybody peace.