Help Does your SI numb down the more the attempts?

[Claymore7274]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

 

[bitterToad]

This is gonna sound weird, but I'm hoping that with practice I can numb myself enough to go the way auto-erotic people go accidentally - there must be some amount of adapting to it, if it is possible to lose track of it and go accidentally.

 

[Exhausted546]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

People still fail after passing out?! I had the same issue as you today. My heart started pumping so hard I thought it'd burst out of my chest essentially, my heart and head hurt for 7ish hours after

 

[Terrible_Life]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

I'd recommend to do full hanging if its possible because thats a much safer method.
I also wanna die by hanging but full hanging and whenever I build my set up or I practiced by strangulating myself and then I got nearly unconscious I felt lots of anxiety about this whole hanging process do you also get this huge anxiety whenever you practice or just think about your suicide?
How do you feel about those few seconds while you're conscious and will feel the pain on the neck? I think that + the unknown after we die and maybe the fact I'll leave my little brother are the biggest factors why I am so afraid of it but I have to ctb i have no other option it just must happen otherwise all will get much worse

 

[Claymore7274]

I'd recommend to do full hanging if its possible because thats a much safer method.
I also wanna die by hanging but full hanging and whenever I build my set up or I practiced by strangulating myself and then I got nearly unconscious I felt lots of anxiety about this whole hanging process do you also get this huge anxiety whenever you practice or just think about your suicide?
How do you feel about those few seconds while you're conscious and will feel the pain on the neck? I think that + the unknown after we die and maybe the fact I'll leave my little brother are the biggest factors why I am so afraid of it but I have to ctb i have no other option it just must happen otherwise all will get much worse

i feel extremely anxious and a overwhelming feeling of fear takes over my entire being when i'm about to black out, thinking "i'm doing this for real, i will actually die" those thoughts force my body to back out, i've been stuck to my bed for hours today, i really don't want to stay alive but my body wont let me

Full suspension might not be the greatest idea cause the only anchor point available at my home has a open window for everyone to see, perhaps i could do it at midnight but my situation is still not good enough to rely on it

People still fail after passing out?! I had the same issue as you today. My heart started pumping so hard I thought it'd burst out of my chest essentially, my heart and head hurt for 7ish hours after

Yes :(, due to your body shaking while unconscious, removing the perfect pressure partial needs for it to work, it's really tricky

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm thinking about FSH this weekend [I WILL chicken out]

 

[Terrible_Life]

i feel extremely anxious and a overwhelming feeling of fear takes over my entire being when i'm about to black out, thinking "i'm doing this for real, i will actually die" those thoughts force my body to back out, i've been stuck to my bed for hours today, i really don't want to stay alive but my body wont let me

Full suspension might not be the greatest idea cause the only anchor point available at my home has a open window for everyone to see, perhaps i could do it at midnight but my situation is still not good enough to rely on it

Yes :(, due to your body shaking while unconscious, removing the perfect pressure partial needs for it to work, it's really tricky

Yes you're so correct with the fear issue. Today I finally wanted to finish all preparations for my hanging but all of a sudden i got a panic attack, i felt horrible and still i tried to do the preparations but unfortunately i got headache and now my 3h time in which house was empty is nearly over so i failed once again with finally making the last bit of progress so i can end this nightmare. Now I just look at the wall and ask myself why i am so weak and can't finish it

i feel extremely anxious and a overwhelming feeling of fear takes over my entire being when i'm about to black out, thinking "i'm doing this for real, i will actually die" those thoughts force my body to back out, i've been stuck to my bed for hours today, i really don't want to stay alive but my body wont let me

Full suspension might not be the greatest idea cause the only anchor point available at my home has a open window for everyone to see, perhaps i could do it at midnight but my situation is still not good enough to rely on it

Yes :(, due to your body shaking while unconscious, removing the perfect pressure partial needs for it to work, it's really tricky

You cam buy black foils made for the purpose to prevent people seeing through your windows and then attach them on your windows then nobody can see anything

 

[Blueberry Panic]

No it doesn't numb you its more like you know what to expect so you have more experience

 

[Claymore7274]

No it doesn't numb you its more like you know what to expect so you have more experience

I will eventually make it i guess

 

[kuroshimi]

With more practice and research I become more confident, although I never passed out as well and this scares me too.