Now that I am very close to CTB, I've been spending most of my time sleeping, I am becoming so at peace, I feel so anxious when I'm awake that I feel so much relief drifting off to sleep. I don't even feel really alive anymore or human with a personality, soon I will be in oblivion. I really want to save my family the trauma though, but I really want to take N in the comfort of my home, preferably with a doggie next to me. I know they are going to be the first to find me.
HereToday
Arcanist
- Dec 27, 2019
- 437
Me too! I've been sleeping all day lately. Glad to know it's normal, so to speak. Sleep is the only relief, but the past few days I've been dreaming either about my troubles, or that everything is ok. Hate dreaming. I hope death is like sleeping, minus the dreams. Also hope SI doesn't kick in at the last minute
