Does it make me a bad person that I didn't have cancer and I am depressed over it?

[Kriegsman]

Hey, a month ago there was a tumor on my pancreas that was not cancerous but does it make me a bad person that wish it was.

 

[Xanabby]

No. It makes you someone who wants to die.

We are constantly vilified! That's why we see ourselves as bad.

 

[SVEN]

No, although having nursed an elderly relative at home during the 9 terrible months it took her to die of liver cancer it does make me feel that you may not have had prolonged exposure to the agony of such a death.

 

[escape_from_hell]

It seems like everything goes morally except suicide.
That is universally evil/hated.
Anything other than increasing levels of gratitude means bad person.