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glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
60
Currently struggling with a lot of things like always but even more so now with the start of a new job, friend drifting and being invisible to most of my family.

I am beginning to feel like I am not real and half the stuff that's going on around me isn't happening. Like a weird dissociation, some days I don't even feel like I am myself.
It's a person controlling me and I'm on the sidelines.

I just want to ask if anyone has felt the same or if at all maybe gets better? I don't know i'm just at this point now.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I dont think it will get better unless miracle will happen....and I dont count on it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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In some ways, things feel less intensely painful for me now- so, I suppose that's an improvement. I've also experienced friendships drifting apart. At the time, it was extremely painful. Now, I just accept it. To the extent that I probably wouldn't even make the effort to see them again. It's double edged though. In feeling less pain, I feel less joy too. Plus, I don't go out seeking joy and connection really because I don't want the experience of losing it again.

Regarding work- that's just a constant worry for me. I never see that changing unfortunately.

As to whether things can get better- sure they can. They can also stay the same or, get worse! Unfortunately. All we really have the power to do is to cope with them as best we can. Try to make decisions that lead us where we want to go.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,718
Some things get better for some people and some it gets worst. Life is a gamble
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,815
Not for me ... however I know it has for some.
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
729
I don't know. I'd like for things to get better, but I'm extremely skeptical that they will.
 
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roommate

roommate

Trying to drag myself out of the garbage
Feb 14, 2025
435
No body knows who you are or what you've tried, so I don't think people can answer this question for you.
Perhaps breaking your circle could help, since you seem to be getting stuck.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
60
No body knows who you are or what you've tried, so I don't think people can answer this question for you.
Perhaps breaking your circle could help, since you seem to be getting stuck.
That I have tried but unfortunately as soon as I change one thing I get sucked right back into the cycle
 
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roommate

roommate

Trying to drag myself out of the garbage
Feb 14, 2025
435
That I have tried but unfortunately as soon as I change one thing I get sucked right back into the cycle
I'm sorry you're going through this, asking a doctor for a therapist can might help you with those things.
I wish you all the best.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

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Mar 15, 2025
703
For me, it slowly gets worse. The past few years have felt increasingly like my life is a scripted sitcom. It's just plain weird what happens. And it all seems eerily scripted, preplanned, like I'm not really here. The whole world looks like a movie to me.
 
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divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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For me, it slowly gets worse. The past few years have felt increasingly like my life is a scripted sitcom. It's just plain weird what happens. And it all seems eerily scripted, preplanned, like I'm not really here. The whole world looks like a movie to me.
Thats how I feel like we are in a simulation
 
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glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
60
Thats how I feel like we are in a simulation
feeling this more lately, like what's the point. now that i'm not in school anymore i don't have anything to look forward to and now my parents can keep on going know that i accomplished two big goals.
 
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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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I don't think it will get better at some point
 
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wiz_miz_03

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Apr 10, 2025
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It's getting worse day by day for me
 
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glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
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Knoc

Knoc

FATAL ERROR
Apr 21, 2025
82
The context of why people are depressed and suicidal is different for each person so it really depends on the reason.

Maybe trying to be proactive with the things that are under one's control can improve the lives of some people, depending on what causes their Misery, of course.
 
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FrownyFace

FrownyFace

Is it suicide or sabotage you think
May 15, 2024
42
Started creeping in at 15. I'm 24 and it just feels worse and worse everyday. I've lost any hope of things ever getting better
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
There are periods where it does, but for me; mostly no.
 
Electra

Electra

The relief of giving in to destruction
Jul 1, 2024
581
If it gets better - it'll get worse.
 
Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
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Currently struggling with a lot of things like always but even more so now with the start of a new job, friend drifting and being invisible to most of my family.

I am beginning to feel like I am not real and half the stuff that's going on around me isn't happening. Like a weird dissociation, some days I don't even feel like I am myself.
It's a person controlling me and I'm on the sidelines.

I just want to ask if anyone has felt the same or if at all maybe gets better? I don't know i'm just at this point now.
"Does it ever get better?"
For some people it does. But not for everyone.
I have no way of knowing which applies to you. (And probably you don't either.)
 
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waitin2go

yungblud's "hello heaven" sparked hope for now
Apr 26, 2025
80
Probably could also post this under recovery, to get a good set of data 🤭 though I'm assuming you're not looking for that

I also would like to know; if it got better for anyone after 30/40/50 years of shit. I saw a ted talk a lady did, medicated and still depressed 40 years and counting, just continuing living by accepting it will never get better.

Idk if I could ever do that - just continuing living by accepting it will never get better (then again I chickened out from attempting my method, so idk... Maybe I'd be forced to at some point)
 
glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
60
Probably could also post this under recovery, to get a good set of data 🤭 though I'm assuming you're not looking for that

I also would like to know; if it got better for anyone after 30/40/50 years of shit. I saw a ted talk a lady did, medicated and still depressed 40 years and counting, just continuing living by accepting it will never get better.

Idk if I could ever do that - just continuing living by accepting it will never get better (then again I chickened out from attempting my method, so idk... Maybe I'd be forced to at some point)
no, at this point i'm not. And sure for some it gets better, hell maybe they could find what they truly want to do with themselves. But for me, i'm always getting the short end of these stick.