I was snooping around back in 2020 when SS was still .com and not the .net version. I found out about N and that there was a supplier for it. Unfortunately, I didn't buy at that time because I thought things were finally turning around and I became hopeful. It was in my mind to get one just in case but I bailed it in the last minute because my wife then became pregnant with our child. Now, things have come back with a vengeance and it's just too much for me to bear. Stupid of me not to get it, I know. Does anyone here still know of where to buy N? Or are there other painless alternatives to peacefully go away?
I honestly deserve non-messy, peaceful alternatives. Honestly, I deserve for all the pain I've gone through. I deserve that at least. I don't want the messy stuff like blowing my dome off with a gun or slashing my own throat. Even getting a gun around these parts (live in Asia) is hard and I would need to have underground connections or need to connect to unsavory individuals to even get one. Even then, people here are predatory and they could smell my desperation miles away and would probably make things worse for me.
I honestly deserve non-messy, peaceful alternatives. Honestly, I deserve for all the pain I've gone through. I deserve that at least. I don't want the messy stuff like blowing my dome off with a gun or slashing my own throat. Even getting a gun around these parts (live in Asia) is hard and I would need to have underground connections or need to connect to unsavory individuals to even get one. Even then, people here are predatory and they could smell my desperation miles away and would probably make things worse for me.
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