Declaring a desire to watch people die plays into the hands of those who oppose this forum. It lets them claim that it is populated by ghouls and sickos.
I think that there may, indeed, be one or two of them around.
It can be excused, to a small extent imo, by watching as a genuine learning process and warning to people who genuinely intend to end their lives in a similar way. The example of Budd Dwyer is instructive; although he collapsed instantly, he seems to have fired upwards into his mouth causing an exit wound which might be more or less centralised in his parietal bone. The bullet must have tracked well away from the medulla. The complete video shows that his eyes are open at the moment of collapse and then close comparatively slowly.
I am suggesting that death was not absolutely instant, poor man .