Does anyone feel they don't belong or feel disconnected from reality?

[manchuman123]

I mean, I try not to think about it. But 4 times today, have I asked someone a question or said something and they haven't responded. I just sit there, not even mad, don't even repeat myself. I just feel so disconnected from everyone. I try to spark a conversation, and no one responds. It's very debilitating. Anyone else?

 

[VoidBlessed]

Me too. Idk quite what else to say. my presence, if registered at all, is made clear to be unwanted. I'm so tired of being an outcast on a dying planet.

 

[unluckysadness]

I feel like a ghost. I often say "hello" to people and they don't answer, so I think I must be invisible or already dead (I'm already dead inside since a long time).
It's very strange : I don't have the right to live and I don't have the right to die. Shit

 

[fazzle]

Ive always been puzzled watching other people interact with each other so naturally, having conversations like it's the easiest thing in the world. When I try it it's usually a 1 word interaction that's awkward. My reality does feel like there's a glitch somewhere, I'm just not like everyone else, obviously they haven't found those defects relating to me in the matrix yet!

 

[nool]

Yes to both. All my life, I've been an outcast. I was bullied in school because of my appearance, personality, interests, etc. Even in communities I tried to get involved in, I always felt like there was an invisible circle drawn in the sand that I was always on the outside of. I've never felt like I belonged, even as a young child.

 

[claviceps.purpurea]

I'm just a piece impossible to fix in this puzzle which is called world

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I've had this sentiment ever since I could remember. From the way my parents treated me growing up, to the way others treated me throughout my life. I feel like I'm just not natural to this world or supposed to be here. I feel like this life has attacked me because of that. I guess that's why I'm at peace with leaving here. I finally realized that I'm leaving nothing behind, and no one will miss me. And I'm okay with that. My worst pain has always come from dealing with this world as I imagined it or how I thought it should be rather than how it is.

 

[w1ngedpearl]

I feel detached from reality because my way of existing is isolating. I spend all time in my apartment alone and when I hear other people outside - laughing, playing, talking to each other, solving everyday problems, I feel weird. It's like I'm watching the world from some bubble while life is passing me by.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Yes to both. All my life, I've been an outcast. I was bullied in school because of my appearance, personality, interests, etc. Even in communities I tried to get involved in, I always felt like there was an invisible circle drawn in the sand that I was always on the outside of. I've never felt like I belonged, even as a young child.

Same. Even communities of other lonely autistic people don't want me there. Idk what's wrong with me, what makes me so universally icky but I think there's nothing to fix. It's fundamental to me, whatever I am.

I try very very hard not to hate the people shutting me out though. It's just a type mismatch, nothing more. It's not their fault that we're incompatible, and anger and hate aren't justified. I can't help but be jealous though. Oh well.

 

[leviant123]

A lot actually. I tried to cope with it by thinking maybe I'm just more expressive and I like to be more bubbly? (because that's how i am most of the time) yet nothing about me seems to fit with the crowd around me. For some reason now that I'm typing this I can't seem to describe myself and think of why i feel so disconnected. Even within myself, it's like i'm playing a character but I'm so tired of everything already, like i'm just going along with life till there's absolutely no reason to anymore. maybe me making sense of this won't help, i've been trying everything to be connected im just accepting shit now