I get suicidal at the thought of working a 9-5, Going through traffic, Going grocery shopping, Just doing daily life activities. I don't know why I get suicidal at the thought about it. As for billboards, I get suicidal because they're daily reminders of those things I just mentioned. Also, I definitely agree. Billboards are super ugly, and they're just another way to remind me of how shitty life is on top of having to drive places, which I hate doing as it is. So you're definitely not alone.