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fkyou

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Does anyone else become completely unable to feel joy once they are sad.. it's like I could be happy this month next month completely unable to understand what makes people happy..like I didn't go through it before..if you get what I mean.. it's been a year like this.. it's not I'm sad but I can watch something and forget about it..no..I'm genuinely sad and I don't feel joy in anything and read everything negatively..
 
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AngelTear

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Oct 27, 2025
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Happiness only feels solely fleeting, like how you smell something bad and your disgusted but then when the smell goes away you're normal again- that's happiness for me, it never stays too long
It's like my default is being gloomy or upset or bored
 
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It's more anxiety that grips me like that. If something is worrying me, it's so so difficult to stop myself catastrophizing. To the extent that I'm useless if someone tells me something they are worried about. All my energy is focussed on the thing I'm panicking about.

When I was in that severe of a state and my friend needed help- they would agree to try and talk me down from my ledge so that I could in turn, help them.

With sadness though, I'm not sure really. My average state is a kind of melancholly. I dip in and out of the other emotions. I suppose I'm old enough and uggly enough to realise that emotions came and went in life. Even the most intense ones. Look at anyone who is in love say or, even has a very intense crush. They will swear up and down they'll never love anyone else the same way. But- even love can come and go. I suppose I just think these other emotions do too. I do definitely find myself worried though. If a patch is particularly bad- will this be the new 'normal'?

Maybe that's a problem really- with living in the moment- if that truly is all we can experience and envisage from now on. They don't really address what to do if the 'now' is that terrible.

Are there any things that change your mood at all? Music, films, video clips? Exercise? Can you 'jail break' yourself out of this at all?
 
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Yeah. I mean I have reasons for being this way but no, I see joy in nothing. And I never will again. It's over. Just gotta finish it off. Which I can't seem to
 
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quietbird

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Apr 2, 2025
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Does anyone else become completely unable to feel joy once they are sad.. it's like I could be happy this month next month completely unable to understand what makes people happy..like I didn't go through it before..if you get what I mean.. it's been a year like this.. it's not I'm sad but I can watch something and forget about it..no..I'm genuinely sad and I don't feel joy in anything and read everything negatively..
You're describing the anhedonia part of depression.
 
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peacecomingsoon

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Dec 28, 2025
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Yes. It may be one of the worst parts of episode. Rarely even able to feel love and joy for my own dogs. Whom I love very much otherwise. It's like all emotion and all the feelings and parts of me that make me human are gone. Every episode it gets worse, this feeling and I lose more and more of myself. Like you, distractions don't even work anymore and I don't find myself interested in anything anymore. Pushes me into ctb even more, this feeling. I'm sorry you're going through it too and sending hugs. Wish you the best.
 
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