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HitBlackVein

HitBlackVein

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Apr 12, 2023
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I've posted a lot on this site, but I think this is the rock bottom of me hating myself. I cannot live without comparision. I look at beautiful models, anime characters, anything, and I wish I wasn't fucking born. I am a total loser right? I feel like it, I am awkward and unable to make any relationship last longer than few days. I am so sick of myself I wish I was erased from this word. But I MUST live, but it's so unbearable, please tell me anyone gets it I hate myself so much, no words can express it I am so tired I am so tired
 
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Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

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Jun 13, 2023
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im tired of everything too man. i hear you and i wish that people would do something about the quite literal millions of other people going through the exact thing.

your SI really wants to live, but you need to make sure that your suicidal tendencies and/or your SI aren't influencing your decisions. really consider if you want to live or CTB without medical treatment
 
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Rack.-

Rack.-

Trying to understand this world
Jun 11, 2023
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I've posted a lot on this site, but I think this is the rock bottom of me hating myself. I cannot live without comparision. I look at beautiful models, anime characters, anything, and I wish I wasn't fucking born. I am a total loser right? I feel like it, I am awkward and unable to make any relationship last longer than few days. I am so sick of myself I wish I was erased from this word. But I MUST live, but it's so unbearable, please tell me anyone gets it I hate myself so much, no words can express it I am so tired I am so tired
Comparing with other people is something we instinctively do so it's perfectly fine! I know how overwhelming it feels when you just look at someone and then you feel so useless with yourself because of the looks/things they have achieved, etc. You are not a loser for feeling like that! Everyone has their ups and downs from time to time even those who always try to appear perfect. So please don't be so hard on yourself about it ❤️
 
Odahviing475

Odahviing475

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Apr 12, 2023
57
I get you. I have a lot, but I am not happy because of my inherent comparisons with other people. I feel so edgy talking about stuff like this and I'm like, when does it stop? When can I be happy being me?
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,574
Existing certainly is so torturous, I do get that it's awful and tiring feeling trapped in this world, there really is too much suffering in existing. But anyway best wishes.
 
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