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monolog

Student
Oct 29, 2024
123
Or is it just SI affect your way of thinking
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
141
To a degree I do, even though they're not the best people.

It won't stop me though. I just feel a small sense of guilt knowing the pain my passing would bring them.
 
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ilvgore

ilvgore

alien
Jan 7, 2024
157
NOPE AND NOPEEE, they never cared about me, they neglected my emotional needs trough my childhood, made a mess [me] that could be a potential danger and even if i explained my mental struggles they didn't want to understand.
they will be happy without my heavy baggage☺️
i'm a little bit worried about my siblings, they seem to turn into a version of me..
stupid parents continue to make my siblings, though they have no idea on how to be a parent😂😂
sorry i'm just in lot of pain mentally that i don't see another scapegoat for my situation.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
821
my parents are the reason why I am mentally and emotionally broken
they are scum
I despise them
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
230
I would be lying if I said I didn't. I wish I didn't care about them, but I do. They've done many things to me over the years that has left me feeling betrayed and neglected. But, I still see the humanity in them.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,959
I don't care about my parents at all when it comes to my suicide. They created me then trying to prevent my suicide attempts leading me to continue this life I don't wish to experience. I feel no guilt for what grief or pain I would cause to them if I find a way to die as they are the ones who caused me to suffer this life and force me to continue it. SI doesn't have any effect how I view them.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,820
Yeah I care about my parent. She's pretty much the only reason I keep living my miserable life. If I can outlast her I'll check out the day she does.
 
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Subhumano

Subhumano

I dont have friends
Apr 20, 2025
176
Yes i dont rope becausd theyll be sad
 
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thendtocome

thendtocome

Level up
Jun 10, 2025
18
NOPE AND NOPEEE, they never cared about me, they neglected my emotional needs trough my childhood, made a mess [me] that could be a potential danger and even if i explained my mental struggles they didn't want to understand.
they will be happy without my heavy baggage☺️
i'm a little bit worried about my siblings, they seem to turn into a version of me..
stupid parents continue to make my siblings, though they have no idea on how to be a parent😂😂
sorry i'm just in lot of pain mentally that i don't see another scapegoat for my situation.
Some parents are just still selfish children... They never read enough to give their child a better life chance 😡
 
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nuva

nuva

"I'm blue da ba dee dabba da-ee"
Jul 7, 2025
15
I love my family, but not so much that it motivates me to continue living.
I will leave them money so they don't have to pay for cremation. And I know they have people who can support them, so I worry less about guilt.
 
starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
129
do i care about my parents? fuck no
is it just SI? fuck yes and I will overcome that soon
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,057
Yes and no. In the sense of appreciating meeting my needs and raising me, yes, but they are also one of the factors (though much less) towards my eventual CTB. I suppose that could be familial love just by default, but logically speaking, no, I don't have the best relations with them, I'm just with them due to circumstance of sentience. As of current day, no they aren't the main cause of CTB, I have other reasons and causes, personal and external. I am also not letting me hold me back from CTB'ing, I am going follow through on my own terms, not out of hatred, getting back, or anything.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,023
I irrationally hate them for putting me here and I can't cut it, and for not being able to get me out of it.

I have really damaged the relationship.

My mom attempted suicide growing up many times and for some reason I was not concerned but I'm pretty sure I will be absolutely fucking devastated when they go, and when my dog goes.

Was a wreck for months and fell into addiction when my last dog died.
 
BRAINWORMS

BRAINWORMS

dust to dust
Jul 20, 2020
150
Yes. I love them and wish I could've been less of a disappointment and source of heartbreak.
 
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amerie

amerie

style="color: rgb(255, 0, 208);" dirty water in my cup ⋆˚꩜。.° ༘🎧⋆🖇₊˚ෆ
Oct 6, 2024
273
I resent them but I also love them to death, I hate thinking about them hurting over me but I also feel so angry that I was brought on this earth when I genuinely don't belong here.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,233
images
 
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Poiter1987

Member
Apr 14, 2025
54
Yes and no.yother currently has a brain tumour and im to self obsesses with sucicde to care. She's also been a point of pain throughout my life. A very manipulative person with alcohol issues. I do love her and my dad. But she makes it hard. My dad is an amazing person.
 
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cat_enjoyer22

cat_enjoyer22

Member
Jul 3, 2025
5
Honestly, there's nothing I hate more than my parents. Never support me, never care about me. Just constant yelling.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
138
I hate and resent my parents for all of the abuse I faced throughout my life. And I wish I didn't, but unfortunately I do still care about them to a small degree. I know my parents have both been through hell themselves growing up. So I can understand why they are the way they are and what led them to treating me the way they did. But it still doesn't excuse what they put me through, and I hate them so much for it.
 
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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
42
They gave no care for me growing up. I dont think I ever developed much emotion for them beyond just as human beings. Im completely indifferent to what their response to my death would be, though I know it would hurt them.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,315
Yes. My Dad is a good person and I love him a great deal. My resolve is to wait for him to go before I feel able to. But then, I'm sure SI will make an appearance after that.
 
cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
716
Not so much. I do, but it's not holding me back. They shun me because I changed from Jehovah's Witness to Catholic. They wouldn't even know for a long time, maybe never.
 
usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
196
Yes and no. I do love my mom and plan on wiring her all the money I've saved before I ctb. I don't have much now, but hopefully it'll be a couple thousand when my date arrives. But I don't love her enough to not ctb if I feel ready when the time comes.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,722
I care about my dad but I imagine he will be dead in 5 years anyways. My mom I never felt a bond with her . All the years I cried to her to please find me help and she didnt has made me not like her to much
 
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kopebaldy

Member
Jul 5, 2025
31
No.
There's nothing wrong with them, the "wrong" is all mine.
I appreciate and grateful to everything they did for me over the years. All the sacrifices, I don't think I can ever repay that debt.
But that is that and this is this. I never asked to be born.
 
_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
Mar 4, 2024
678
I don't care about my parents. I have a very distant relationship with them.
 

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