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CTB Music Playlist?


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TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
I haven't been able to listen to music for a while. Any time any music turns on, I feel "plagued by afflictions" for a lack of better wording.

I love music. It's weird to feel like I have to be without it, lest my depression and suicidal thoughts get worse. It's been weeks since I've been able to turn on a song without having a mental breakdown. I have to hide it when I'm around other people listening to their music.

I made a playlist to listen to as I CTB. They're mostly death related; some angsty, some peaceful. I just want to be able to enjoy music one last time before I go.
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
326
Probably those songs that remind me of why I'm lying alone preparing to die.
 
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nucleosidal

Member
Sep 28, 2023
12
not a playlist but ive just been listening to a song called NERUOK over and over to get me into the mindset i need to be in and what I hope the effects to be on others
 
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ThisUnrest

Seeking personal sovereignty
Aug 15, 2023
178
I haven't been able to listen to music for a while
Me too. Everything I used to love so much reminds me of my dead husband and makes me too sad now. Music was such a huge part of our lives and shared memories.
 
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nofunclub

nofunclub

all in all, it’s just another brick in the wall
Jul 17, 2023
303
I think I'll probably listen to my favorite band… not because it's like, good CTB music, but so I can try to find comfort in music that feels like home.
 
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TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
I CAN'T BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT TO PUT "O.D." BY POLYPHIA ON MY PLAYLIST
 

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