Help Do you feel like following up with medical appointments?

[madwoman]

Hi,

I have a follow up medical appointment soon about a health issue that is kind of the icing on top of leading me to choosing to CTB bc the hope is lost and things continue to get worse. I found out results on something by an assistant (and not the provider) and have been pushing off a follow up with the provider to give me the results and next steps. This diagnosis is one of my worse fears come true and it's hard to hear it knowing there's not much to do more than what I'm already doing. So I feel like the appt is pointless and will just make me feel worse or annoyed if they try to instill hope which is false.

& then I have therapy after which I've also been pushing off bc I'm tired of discussing the same thing and I just don't want to be bothered anymore. And bc I want to ctb, I don't want them to find out so was thinking of canceling via a message bc of the holidays etc just an excuse so they think I'm fine

So I'm just wondering would you go to these follow ups if you were in a similar situation or do you feel it's pointless?

 

[Dejected 55]

Yeah... I was in the hospital for my kidney stone a month or so ago, and when I got out I was thinking I was going to try and kill myself soon so not worried about the follow-up to remove the temporary stent they put in my kidney. Then I failed my attempt and landed in the mental facility for several weeks... and couldn't follow up... and now I'm back out and thinking I should really do that follow up because it seems like I'm going to stay alive for a while and don't need additional complications.

As for therapy... I related when I first got released I had a therapist appt that I went to and they sent me back to the facility. When they discharged me this time, they hadn't yet scheduled a follow-up therapist appt... and they have called a couple of times trying to schedule one with me, but I've not returned those calls.

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

Im in a similar situation. Problems that are not life threatening but it can take months of tests (bowels) . Some of these tests could be in the big city and i dont have the energy to go there, not even once. Taking a bus and losing a day for this sounds like sci fi to me rn.

I pray that I dont have something urgent so i can avoid doctors as much as possible

 

[Lostandlooking]

Currently also dealing with medical appointments, will have to speak to lots of different doctors and therapists in the coming months. And I'm dreading it. But I'm in a position where I can reasonably expect that this won't last forever. My conditions aren't terminal or something like that, there possibly won't be a cure or improvement either. But I can just kinda look forward to a time where the appointments will stop and life will be its regular painful self again. Which is painful but not bad enough to kill myself at the moment. Good luck whatever you decide to do. I just wanted to chime in because I know how difficult it can be dealing with this medical stuff and the appointments.

 

[mourningyesterday]

i relate , my health keeps getting worse and the only time i leave the house is for appointments i need to keep speaking to my GP but when all u think abt is CTB its a struggle to find the will to do it

 

[madwoman]

Yeah... I was in the hospital for my kidney stone a month or so ago, and when I got out I was thinking I was going to try and kill myself soon so not worried about the follow-up to remove the temporary stent they put in my kidney. Then I failed my attempt and landed in the mental facility for several weeks... and couldn't follow up... and now I'm back out and thinking I should really do that follow up because it seems like I'm going to stay alive for a while and don't need additional complications.

As for therapy... I related when I first got released I had a therapist appt that I went to and they sent me back to the facility. When they discharged me this time, they hadn't yet scheduled a follow-up therapist appt... and they have called a couple of times trying to schedule one with me, but I've not returned those calls.

Yeah I agree for you about following up on the stent, I also wouldn't want further complications like that knowing that I'd be here for longer. Therapy can be hard to follow up with too :/

Im in a similar situation. Problems that are not life threatening but it can take months of tests (bowels) . Some of these tests could be in the big city and i dont have the energy to go there, not even once. Taking a bus and losing a day for this sounds like sci fi to me rn.

I pray that I dont have something urgent so i can avoid doctors as much as possible

Omg things take so much energy - just want to be left alone and when it takes so long to go through or get answers it's just a lot. I have other concerns but won't do anything about it until it becomes urgent but yeah hope we both don't have to deal with that

Currently also dealing with medical appointments, will have to speak to lots of different doctors and therapists in the coming months. And I'm dreading it. But I'm in a position where I can reasonably expect that this won't last forever. My conditions aren't terminal or something like that, there possibly won't be a cure or improvement either. But I can just kinda look forward to a time where the appointments will stop and life will be its regular painful self again. Which is painful but not bad enough to kill myself at the moment. Good luck whatever you decide to do. I just wanted to chime in because I know how difficult it can be dealing with this medical stuff and the appointments.

Thank you, yeah it's hard/exhausting to keep up with appts. This one would give me like a final verdict pretty much that I already know second hand so will be debating on what to do. It helps to share and hear others thoughts

i relate , my health keeps getting worse and the only time i leave the house is for appointments i need to keep speaking to my GP but when all u think abt is CTB its a struggle to find the will to do it

For real. It's exhausting, sorry you have to deal with the struggle too

 

[thetimehaspast]

I have physiatrist usually see every 6 months and a key worker I see few weeks. The only person I think helps is my key worker but the rest of the team just want me off their books and tell me I'm fixed. Which is never the case.

My mother was a great support dealing with these people and supporting me. Unfortunately she died in Jan and I have no one to fight for me. My dad is still alive and loves me but looks to me as a replacement for her which I can't be.

So every time to I go I wonder what they will ask, do to me or make me feel 100 times worse. It's always a horrible experience and make me feel there is nothing wrong with me.

In the last two months I have tried to CBT with paracetamol which made everything worse.

I'm in a stage where I don't want to see them or care if I do. I just want to be left alone for as long as possable to think of something to CBT. I have no interest in staying alive - I just so wish what I could do it will work where no one will find me until I'm dead.

Again though the one thing that's supposed to help has the complete opposite affect.