Do you feel as if you were in the same boat with anyone you know?

[noname223]

I feel pretty lonely. Existentially.

I have friends. Some of them have mental issues but noone of them close to my existential, severe issues.
I have family. I am very different to them. FInancially, we are in the same boat.
And me and my friends and my family are in a certain way in the same boat. If I kill myself, I will ruin their lives. I think my friends are not aware of that. But I think my suicide had a strong impact on them. I think once they played it down but from I heard if must be really rough. I am not sure though. I think it could kill my parents or they would get strokes or shit like that.

Mentally, I feel similar to many people on here. In a really bad shape with a lot of self-loathing. I think I am privileged I live in Germany though. From the mental state I might be in the same boats with many people on here. But most people would not notice if I disappeared. Maybe for some it would be sad if I killed myself. But most people would move on. Which is only normal and healthy. However, there were cases were people found love on here, one person committed suicide and the other person followed. Maybe one good reason why to be careful not to become too close with members on here.

When I read the literature of David Foster Wallace I had the feeling we were in the same boat. All the self-loathing and imposter syndrom. All the suicidality for years with no escape. This made me feel less lonely. But this also applies to this community. When I am on here I feel less lonely. It depends on some factors whether I feel in the same boat. I think the lives of people on here are quite heterogenous.

I once felt I had a similar life to someone I knew on here and this person committed suicide. And this made me a little bit more suicidal for a while. But I think it would help noone if I committed suicide too.

 

[LittleSunshine]

No, I've never met anyone who's in the same boat, not in the outside world, and not online either. Over the years, I've moved through different groups. Even here on this forum, I sometimes notice the same feeling. The people are genuinely kinder and more understanding than on most other platforms, yet there are moments where I still feel a quiet loneliness, an absence of being fully understood, or of curiosity to understand. It's a subtle feeling, but one that can slowly turn into frustration.

 

[violetforever]

me and my one friend are in nearly identical situations but we don't know what to do for ourselves or one another. i don't think she is seriously suicidal as i am but we can casually talk about wanting to die and hating our lives together at least.

 

[FoxSauce]

Me prob be like :

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think it's more that I wanted to feel like other people were similar. Probably around creative people, I've felt similarly, because we worry so intensely about similar things.

Weirdly here, I think our situations are all pretty nuanced. That said, we're mostly all suicidal and feel opressed I imagine in similar ways. To comply, to work, to achieve and stay alive. Plus, we're all hurting in some way I imagine. I think that alone enables us to empathise. Even if we can't completely relate to the details.

 

[Pluto]