Do you ever wonder what your love ones (if any) would think about your suicide?

[Reznor09]

I like to fantasize on how they'll all react when their "friend" and also "precious little child" (for my parents) is dead. I also feel like I would like them to be traumatized. Maybe then they'd understand how I really felt. I can't help but wonder if there are others thinking this.

 

[Deepdense]

They'd never be able to forget.

 

[SufferingDev]

Family - i dont give a f*** - its mostly their fault
My bf - he sees people dying every single day - will get over it
Friends - thats why I talk less and less with people

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

I like to fantasize on how they'll all react when their "friend" and also "precious little child" (for my parents) is dead. I also feel like I would like them to be traumatized. Maybe then they'd understand how I really felt. I can't help but wonder if there are others thinking this.

They will probably be scarred for life

 

[AngelTear]

I don't think anyone would care if I died tbh

 

[nails]

oh, a fellow Trent Reznor fan

but anyway, i think about this all the time. i really don't think my family would be that bothered. all the signs are there, i've outright told most of them that i want to die, they didn't seem to care that much after i was hospitalized after trying to hang myself. i think they'd use my death as an opportunity to act like victims, some of them would just use my suicide as a means of gaining sympathy from others. i don't think they'd be completely unfazed; they've known me for so long, after all. but i don't think they'd be too torn up about it.
i like to think that my death would make them understand how much i was suffering, maybe they'd even feel some remorse for things that they've done—but i know that won't be the case.
all my friends are gone and none of them will know that i'm dead, but i still wonder how they'd react if they found out. i really don't know what those reactions would look like.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

Yes. It makes me kind of nauseous but so does being alive around them like this.
I'm mostly concerned about my niece & nephew but also more concerned about them growing up around a relative this mentally ill (me). atp with what I've seen they'll be in good hands without me.
I have no meaningful connections outside of my family besides online, but my few online friends hardly get to talk to me anymore. I think it would devastate them the most, but they'd also probably be the people most acutely aware that it wasn't their fault...whereas I was the black sheep of my family for years.
Mostly, I can't stand living like this, and it overrides everything else.

 

[LittleSunshine]

I know one person's thoughts and feelings about it, and that's what still matters to me. The rest has become irrelevant.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I don't see why it would matter especially as were all just going to die anyway, all will be gone, forgotten and erased in non-existence anyway, existing is just waiting to die anyway and I'd just be so relieved to never suffer ever again. Existence to me is the most terrible mistake that just causes all this dreadful harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to be permanently unconscious of this torturous existence is all I could hope for, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, the peace of non-existence solves everything for me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do wonder about it but I can't seem to quite predict what they would think or say to one another. I can almost envisage every response as a possibility.

I'm not even entirely sure what I would wish for as a response. Maybe some deserve to feel guilty but then, I doubt they actually would. I tend to still see them as the classic remorseless villain.

The stranger feeling is towards people I believe actually cared- which is friends more than family now. I don't want them to suffer or feel sad. Definitely not for it to make a lasting impact but, it's so hard to judge.

 

[maplebar]

Of course they're gonna be sad. But besides that, I think they're going to be just fine.

 

[persepexa]

My family will never recover. I want to make it easy for them because I love them more than anything but very few people recover from losing a child, especially after the past few years of my life, I put them through a lot. But yeah, it will devastate them and they'll never be the same. A few people will mourn me and go to my funeral. Not many. They'll cry and tell my parents what a great person I was but it won't be true. They didn't know me. It's a selfish decision I know but it feels like the right one for me.

 

[plan c]

No. They would have much better quality of life after im gone.

 

[tooBadTooLate]

I'm sure they'll weep, cry, and then go back to what they were doing when I'm finally in the cremator.

And even then, I feel like I would be disrespected right before I died -- referred to as a "man", saying how I was a good kid, etcetera. NO. He still treats me like shit when he's ignoring or pretending to care for me, and I already want to strangle him at that mere paranoiac thought.

Shit, I think I'm losing it.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

It would be a weight on my family for the rest of their lives. But we kids are grown up. The youngest is 27 somehow. Parents split up. The family has become a bunch of individuals. They're gonna make it or not on their own.

 

[Rwyttndwp]

I think no one but my mom would care genuinely, more so I would be called weak or already faded to that. Not like she probably will even know considering she is a whole continent away now.

 

[LastAcrobat]

Atm I think they will probably still be upset, but I'm working on getting them to slowly not care about me anymore so when I do ctb it will hurt less.

Annoyingly it's taking longer than expected.

 

[tomatopotato475]

Everyone is pretty much only worried about themselves and to cover their own ass so.......No.

 

[thefarter]

this is something i can't really n think about. because i know my mum will be totally devastated Ruined crushed i can't think about it :(
even though genuinely my whole family would be better off without me. it still will hurt them and it makes me so sad

 

[absolute failure]

yes absolutely, but then again, suicide is something deeply personal. It is part of having autonomy over your own body

 

[alstroemeria55]

Nobody gives a shit about me. My family might be sad but they'll get over it. Of the few people who know I have suicidal ideation they don't even believe I will ever do it either.