Discussion do you ever think of those you'll leave behind

[hao☆]

personally, I don't. There's a lot of people that chose to give up on me in my downs and only come back in my ups but never when im in the slumps. If there's anything to it - a big fuck you and a big fat middle finger to them. waiting 2 hear your thoughts on this ty :3c

 

[woodlandcreature]

not really, no. nothing will matter when i'm dead.

 

[Alpacachino]

not really, no. nothing will matter when i'm dead.

It won't matter after you're dead. But I believe OP is talking about right now. Some people have people who love them or they even have dependents. In those cases, you're definitely going to worry about what will happen to them after you're gone.

Me personally, I don't worry about that because the few in my family who care about me are either very old or have loving families of their own. So they're not going to suffer much in my absence.

 

[woodlandcreature]

Some people have people who love them or they even have dependents. In those cases, you're definitely going to worry about what will happen to them after you're gone.

yeah, i didn't discount that. i was talking about my own experience.

 

[FuneralCry]

It wouldn't matter, death is all that's inevitable anyway, this torturous, futile existence is just waiting to die, all will be gone and forgotten in non-existence no matter what.

 

[natori]

I don't need to think about anyone since I don't have anyone around who would care. My older sister and my nephew would be sad for a week or two and then forget about me but that's about it.

 

[ILikeSylveon]

I...don't know. I was born in a destroyed family where my mom and dad weren't even prepared to bring me, neither emotionally or financially, yet they did at 40. I have a older sister with 12 year age gap, she used to tell me back when i was 6-7 years old, that i should die. She even used to beat me brutally, back when i was a kid. Mom and dad used to intervene only when, things used to get worse. I can comfortably say, that i don't have a emotional chains of a family holding me.
if ppl tell me that your "mom would be sad", i just tell them she should be sad for even thinking about bringing me here, 20 years ago.

 

[pokerrkitty]

I think about them a lot. Not my family- that bridge is thoroughly burned- but my boyfriend and my immediate friend group. They are going to be devastated, and I can only hope they won't hate me after I make the choice.

 

[joey2424]

I don't have anyone who would be directly affected. As in - I live alone, I'm single and without children. I actually don't have a pet for the first time in my life since my cat unfortunately passed a year ago. I've decided not to get another so it's not something I'd need to arrange for.

I have people who will be sad, and I do feel sad for them. But the intense pain will be temporary and they will get through it. Such is life.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

really only my boyfriend (and friend), who i'm sure will be very heartbroken. but well, he might just move on at some point, like everyone else.

everyone else, including family, i just can't help but not care much about how they'll feel. i really can't.

 

[Tormented Soul]

only my animals i worry about. no one seems to want any cats and i always think id rather put em down and let em go to heaven with their brothers and sisters then possible be homeless or living i na shelter missing their daddy so mkuch. they are my life line and we do everything together.

kinda wish i didnt know them so i can just go when need be.

 

[thegreatminderaser]

i used to feel ire towards those who hurt me or i feel didn't care or support me, but now i'm surrounded with some pretty decent folks. it hurts to know that it will be a traumatic event for them, but ultimately i know life will go on. i like to pretend i don't matter to ease my consciousness

edit: i only worry about my cat. my parents have a dog thats super prey-driven, my grandparents are irresponsible with animals & only have another few years if that, my partner insists he wouldn't take care of my cat (i think he acknowledges this is one of the few things i can't figure out & is his way of exerting control of the situation.), my roommate says she's worried she wouldn't be able to afford to care for him. i just want him to go to someone who will love him as much as i do.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Every day. I don't want to hurt my dad and brothers. But I've been the walking dead for years.

 

[Siamese Believe]

I don't like the thought of my family seeing my corpse and having to come to terms with my death.

But it's a necessary evil, either way my death is going to hurt them, even if I went peacefully and outside of the house. And truth of the matter is, they've hurt me in a lot of ways.

 

[Naz667]

It's one of the only things keeping me alive. I had a friend who once said that if they chose to CTB, it would be for themself and themself alone, but I can't imagine being that selfish in my final act

 

[indianachrome]

all the time. I have teenagers, a gf, and a loving father that has saved my ass. I'm trying to rationalize ctb by watching youtube videos where the kids have moved on and remember the good times. Fuck - at least some of the new generations acknowledge the suffering and understand that the folks that ctb are literally agonizing while staying here on earth.
Maybe its a blessing i only see my teenage kids once per month. Maybe that will make this process easier.

 

[starboy2k]

if they ain't thinking about me now, why the fuck would i think about them after im gone.

 

[shylady222]

My daughters, although they're adults sharing an apartment I keep thinking of the effects it'll have on them whether I succeed or not and that stops me from doing it. But I really no longer want to live and have even bought the things I need, tested spots, and even wrote my suicide letter to them, it's just the thought of hurting them this severely keeps me from going through with it. But I really no longer want to live and haven't wanted too for years. I realize I only stayed alive to raise them, and now that they're grown I'm still forcing myself to live so to not hurt them but I can't find any reason to live for me.
As for everyone else, I don't have friends, I'm single, and I don't talk to my family except my mother and brother who calls me once in a blue when they need something. This further adds on to my daughters they won't have a strong support system so I'm in a lose-lose situation I force myself to live for their sake while I'm in pain wishing for death or I do what I really want and cause them pain

 

[loumiimi]

Pessoalmente, não. Tem muita gente que desistiu de mim nos meus momentos difíceis e só volta quando estou bem, mas nunca quando estou em baixa. Se serve de consolo, que se danem e mandem eles se foderem. Aguardando seus comentários sobre isso, obrigada :3c

EI think about my girlfriend a lot. I believe she'll do well without me, but there's a good chance she could fall apart or even kill herself. I'm selfish and don't focus on it much, but But sometimes I get thoughtful because I just want her to have a good life, whether she's with me or not.

 

[Liebestod]

Meh not really, I know it'll affect my immediate family but tbh I don't really care about anyone. Once I'm dead nothing would've ever mattered anyway.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Always. I know it'll affect those close to me, and I hate that they'll have to face the devastation and trauma, but sometimes the mental burden just gets too much to bear. I don't expect them to forgive me, I just hope they'll understand, hope that they'll be able to see the front I presented was a facade.

 

[camusfan_ig]

All the time. Sometimes it's what's stopped me. I always wonder how ppl would react to my death, how much it would effect them, stuff like that. I don't think that's ever gonna change for me :/