Do you dream about your upcoming death (esp those who are spiritual/very intuitive)?

[NellyGoes]

I've always been someone who dreams a lot and usually always remember at least 1-2-3 dreams when waking up.

But as my (new — finally!!) date is coming closer again — my dreams include kinda random/silly things like "oh I guess I soon won't have to do XYZ — like cleaning or eating — anymore! Good to know." Or it might be about the things I'll leave behind... such as the letters in my home or things I've written down "to do". I've also had a few small (rather insignificant) things from my childhood rehashed… like that time I spent at the lake with my cousins who I now haven't seen since I was 10 etc.

And the feelings in my dreams about this are… a bit odd. Kinda almost neutral, definitely not utterly devastated (I won't be leaving many behind btw, basically all of my (few) loved ones have already crossed). Kinda more like "well that's a bit sad that you'll soon too be gone from the world huh?" But that's it. Idk if that's a good thing or am I supposed to be more or less sad about it?!

Do you guys have dreams about your upcoming death/"being gone-ness"? How do you feel about it?

 

[Sinful]

I had a dream that was related to me catching the bus last night, unfortunately I can't recall most of it but I do remember exchanging some messages with someone on this site for whatever reason and the next thing I remember is prepping my SN and getting annoyed because I was using opaque cups and couldn't see whether it was dissolved.

I have no idea if there was more/about the rest since I can recall my dreams for a very short period of time and usually forget most of it as the day goes on.

 

[unluckysadness]

I didn't dream about CTB ever, but since I'm on this forum, I dreamt 2 times about it.

Last night I dreamt about Nembutal. In my dream, I was with my former boss at the hospital I've worked for 4 years (he lost his daughter from suicide in the real life - she was a 34 yo doctor with 2 litte kids - sad story).

In my dream, there was a sort of medication distributer in front of me, and I could take all the pills I wanted... Then, I was put in a huge room (the dream as in a fictional hospital) with a lot of meds. And then I realized : OH MY GOD, I'M IN A HOSPITAL, FOR SURE THEY HAVE NEMBUTAL !! I'LL TAKE A BOTTLE WITH ME DISCRETELY ! Then I woke up... DAMN !!!!

 

[NellyGoes]

I do remember exchanging some messages with someone on this site for whatever reason and the next thing I remember is prepping my SN and getting annoyed because I was using opaque cups and couldn't see whether it was dissolved.

This was your dream or real life? Do you have your SN and everything ready/decided? Or still a bit wavering?

I didn't dream about CTB ever, but since I'm on this forum, I dreamt 2 times about it.

Last night I dreamt about Nembutal. In my dream, I was with my former boss at the hospital I've worked for 4 years (he lost his daughter from suicide in the real life - she was a 34 yo doctor with 2 litte kids - sad story).

In my dream, there was a sort of medication distributer in front of me, and I could take all the pills I wanted... Then, I was put in a huge room (the dream as in a fictional hospital) with a lot of meds. And then I realized : OH MY GOD, I'M IN A HOSPITAL, FOR SURE THEY HAVE NEMBUTAL !! I'LL TAKE A BOTTLE WITH ME DISCRETELY ! Then I woke up... DAMN !!!!

Ha yea that's something I would dream. Kinda odd and silly but reminders of what's on your mind…
And yeah I think browsing this forum a lot may for sure increase the likelihood. Though it's generally on my mind obviously. I guess that's the mind processing/preparing us…

 

[Sinful]

All of that happened in my dream, there was probably more to it... Oh well!

I have my SN/Meto ready and date is more or less decided, give or take a day or two. I'm 100% on catching the bus, only reason why I haven't gone thru with it yet is because I don't want to spoil others' good time on top of it and I have some loose ends to tie up

How about you?

 

[TAW122]

I may have had a dream about CTB or dying before, not recently though, but a few years ago. I remember about to die or already dead and just suddenly waking up and becoming sentient again (woke up from a dream). It then became disappointing afterwards.

 

[Andarna]

Some time ago, I had a dream in which I drank SN and experienced hypoxia. I could breathe, but I felt like I wasn't getting enough oxygen. I was surprised because there was no pain or fear. I also felt a huge sense of relief. It lasted about 10 minutes, then I died/woke up.
I wish it were like that in real life...