Discussion Do you also feel anxious all the time when going outside?

[HopefulSleep]

I am scared of seeing people who hurt me all the time I just look on my phone while walking, I am scared of getting hurt somehow it is so much mental torture, I won't go out again until I ctb I can't endure that anymore.

 

[Unattainable666]

I hate going outside. On the weekends I don't leave my home. I live in a very unsafe city and there are way too many people who are dying. Not the way I want to go. I'm sorry you are having difficulties. Be safe.

 

[Walilamdzii]

Same.

 

[MrDarkness]

I just feel every one is watching me, insulting me, judging me. I hate it

 

[PyramidHead]

I just feel every one is watching me, insulting me, judging me. I hate it

Couldn't relate more. I wanna wear a full face mask and baggy clothes to completely hide my figure and face, but then I realize I'd attract even more attention. What a joke lol.

 

[MrDarkness]

Couldn't relate more. I wanna wear a full face mask and baggy clothes to completely hide my figure and face, but then I realize I'd attract even more attention. What a joke lol.

Exactly bro exactly

 

[HopefulSleep]

Couldn't relate more. I wanna wear a full face mask and baggy clothes to completely hide my figure and face, but then I realize I'd attract even more attention. What a joke lol.

I don't want others to see me

 

[PyramidHead]

I don't want others to see me

I wish wearing full face masks was socially acceptable. At least there are more options to cover up in the winter.

 

[Parasitic]

Yes. Constantly, I feel like everyone is staring at me for looking the way I do (although I don't look different outside of a fair few extra pounds ) I think i'm constantly judged for picking basic clothes that never "express myself" OR I have I feel like everyone is out to get me or is gonna attack me/steal what little stuff I have etc. When I have brought this up in the past I have been mocked saying "well your hurt yourself and want to kill yourself why do you care if someone else does" and I can't put into words to them how its different to not want to get stabbed in a non vital place and how I feel. As much as I can I avoid the outside world

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

When I'm bad, yes. And paranoia too. Just walking to the supermarket scared someone I know sees me in my state, or worse, tries to make conversation.

Aware of how I look, I stand out with my long hair and backpack, I hate that feeling.

Issues with even going to supermarkets sometimes and having to interact with a cashier. Going to new places or asking things feels like a monumentous task.

As for safety, not that much, despite living in Brazil. When I'm walking around some seedier neighborhoods or some sketchy people show up I do get uncomfortable. I have been mugged twice in the past.

wear a full face mask

Covid helped a bit with face masks. People look better when you can only see their eyes, everything under can make or break someone. I sometimes leave home with a facemask if I'm feeling especially conscious about my face.

 

[HouseofMortok]

When we first moved near the countryside, to where I grew up, so I know here well, but I went for a walk in the park with a smoke and as I'm finishing the last bits, 3 lads, drinking lager at 11am.. start walking toward me asking for a cig, I explained nicely I only had 1 for the walk and it's finished now. Called me a speccy cunt and I kept walking, fuming and frustrated at being powerless to confront it, but it's still with me to this day, I want nothing more than an example setting of them and if I had it my way they'd be comatose.

Now I carry a little pot of black pepper, at first it was a knife, but I know I'd get fucked for it and adds to the frustration of these cretins and the services that fail and lack, ie Police, why can't I enjoy nature without these pond scum threatening my life. Pepper in face will choke em and they'll be coughing and shitting and either assault them or run off, I'd like to think I'd kill em given that chance where they're defenseless, but I'd likely run cause there's always consequences for me, but these scum go round freely hurting others without consequence.

I only go out if I have to, usually local shop, 5 min walk away for supplies and I'll carry the pepper then, depending on the time, I'll leave phone at home to lessen what can be taken from me. Not a life to live by. I only walk in the park at a certain time when there's less people aligns with needing the shop as it's on the way back from the little route I walk. I feel paranoid people think I'm wierd for walking without a dog lol, daft mind!

 

[PyramidHead]

When I'm bad, yes. And paranoia too. Just walking to the supermarket scared someone I know sees me in my state, or worse, tries to make conversation.

Aware of how I look, I stand out with my long hair and backpack, I hate that feeling.

Issues with even going to supermarkets sometimes and having to interact with a cashier. Going to new places or asking things feels like a monumentous task.

As for safety, not that much, despite living in Brazil. When I'm walking around some seedier neighborhoods or some sketchy people show up I do get uncomfortable. I have been mugged twice in the past.



Covid helped a bit with face masks. People look better when you can only see their eyes, everything under can make or break someone. I sometimes leave home with a facemask if I'm feeling especially conscious about my face.

Understandable. I also stand out because of my long hair. I should've opted for a face mask even after the covid thing ended, but I'd attract more attention if I suddenly started wearing a mask to college.

Really horrible how you went through two muggings. You're certainly strong for going through that and still making an effort to go outside. Hope that never happens again, ever.

 

[PinkyStat]

I just hate going outside, i truly makes me nauseous when i walk into a convenience store or a supermarket and have to wait in a queue or interact with the cashier, my hesd just pulses and I pray that when i think again i will already be home, It also makes me sick when i have to stop to look for something, I just want to get away from there i dont want to look for my favorite cup noodles man…
By the way, It feels so bad when i am close to an open restaurant/bar or smth like that, It feels like everyone is looking at me and my state with disgust, when someone laughs i just want to run away, if i am way to close to someone, i want to run away, when i have to wait on the queue i want to run away… im just so glad that we can order food online, or else i would be insane (or just eating raw ingredients xD)

 

[Shaylla1998]

I rarely leave my house, only a few times a year at most. Being close to or looking at other people makes me uncomfortable. A few years ago, I used to leave the house more frequently and would often feel judged, respected, or see smiles directed towards me by those around me. I stopped looking at people altogether, focusing only on the ground or my phone. But even with noise canceling earphones, I could still feel their presence and it became too overwhelming. The Sun and the weather also play a role in my decision to stay indoors.

Due to my isolation, I sometimes find myself talking to myself in my thoughts, pretending to be other people I know online. While it may be a side effect of my seclusion, I don't mind it. Video games have become my daily routine and I have no desire to socialize again. Even a simple gesture like a wave would be too much for me. I have come to embrace my isolation.

 

[HoleintheDark]

I basically live in a bubble now, I can't go further than 10 miles driving distance from my own home. Not just the social anxiety of facing strangers, but also the paranoia of getting lost, getting my car or belongings stolen etc.

Basically the only reason I'm not living on vending machine food is because the grocery store is a 10 minute walk away. Even then, I refuse to go to the regular checkout lines and always use self-checkout. I'll spend ages walking around aisles I need to get to just because someone else is already there.

The few people left in my life say I need to go out more, but I can't for the life of me see a point in being outside of my home more than what is completely unavoidable.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it would make sense feeling in such a way as there is no peace and safety in this dangerous world filled with risks and endless harm, humans are the worst species and there is unlimited potential for existing to get more unbearable as long as one exists here. I've never liked going anywhere where there would be people, it's always made me feel at least uncomfortable.

 

[subhuman metalhead]

I have extreme social anxiety. It hurts to even be around most people.