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knickknack81
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- Apr 28, 2025
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So yesterday, I was reading a music website talking about a bassist for an indie rock band who died in a random car accident in Canada at the age of 42. It feels terrible saying this but my first response to that was "lucky". Don't get me wrong, my heart goes out for his family and friends and everyone who knew him and I'm sure it had to be absolutely devastating. But for me, as someone who has been having thoughts of CTB for a while now, I can't help but think about going out in a way like that, where you don't have to plan for anything or worry about SI or have the stigma of taking yr own life, etc. Also, to have that feeling of "it should have been me" instead of someone who probably wants to stick around. I dunno, it just seems like every time I read a story of someone dying young and sudden I get upset and think "why couldn't it have been me".