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goodoldnoname923

goodoldnoname923

Wanting to find peace
Mar 28, 2024
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I just had a vision in my head of her,using the bag i got to CTB waiting for me to take my meds and just over powering me forcing the bag on my head and tightening it

I struggle to fight back and resist but she overpowers me i try to struggle but to no avail,its not painful by any means emotionally traumatic yea punching my head as i sob and cry and beg her to stop but she continues never the less

I try to loosen the bag i try to push her off me but my arms are frantically moving around without eyes to guide them all i can see is the blackness of the bag my breathing at a rapid rate at this point

You would think i'd lose consciousness but i don't i just scream cry and sob hyperventilating while squirming around to break free

Sure eventually she finishes me off and maybe its not a way I'd idealistically want to go but maybe I deserve to go out painfully wether that be psychically or psychologically am i really deserving of a peaceful passing?
 
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