Digital Self-Harm

[ineed2die]

I think we all digital self-harm on this site (unless you are a lurker).
How do you digital-self harm?

I post threads like this (among others). And my credit card information.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Your credit card information? Has anyone stolen from you yet? Did the bank still repay you?

I suppose my least healthy habits are for having a morbid fascination with things like industrial disasters. Not gore. But, I've watched things like the HBO series on Chernobyl a few times. Not really good because the horror of it tends to stay with me.

Also, other times companies have put profits over lives. Boeing, Dupont, Union Carbide are the obvious ones. I suppose it just confirms to me how corrupt this world is. I can't be alone in having this sort of fascination- over serial killers too. There's so much media about on them. It must be a common interest. Still, it's likely not healthy exactly.

I'm not sure I'd class being on this site as 'self-harm'. I expect the more 'normie' viewpoint would see it like that though. It's not exactly brimming with optimism! I don't feel like it's brought me down any further though. If anything, it's given me a sense of community.

I think the more 'normie' people in our lives like to believe we can talk to them about anything but the truth is, we probably can't. They'd likely find it too depressing, too opressing and too distressing. I actually think it's kinder to spare them all that. Especially if/ when their responses to previous attempts don't help either party.

I suppose the hope is that if we put on a more 'normie' optimistic facade in front of them and everyone else, we'll eventually genuinely feel that way. 'Fake it till you make it' type of thing. I'm not convinced it works that way though. Maybe it's not good to wallow in sadness and self pity either but I think, just pretending it isn't there doesn't make it go away.

 

[ineed2die]

no nothing happened when i posted my info surprisingly. That card is expired now too.

 

[DevonBostick'sAss]

Lemme get your card info imma show you the real digital harm lmaoo (jk jk)

 

[Aloneandinpain]

I ask AI stuff about my pathetic situation and then insist on more scathing and brutally honest answers. Grok is especially honest.

 

[internetyamero]

digital selfharm for me is probably looking up things that i know will purposefully distress me and make me feel even worse about myself when im in an already bad headspace. nothing like gore or actual, physical self harm, im too much of a wuss for that weirdly enough, but reading up on things like if people think ctb is selfish, if god would hate me for ctb (despite me not following any religions), etc.

also as you said, being on this site and other places that have similar communities, although that one is debatable. i suppose it just depends on your view. this place gives me a sense of community, but at the same time i know people in my life wouldnt be happy if they knew i was on it, and they certainly would see it as a form of self harm.

 

[Pluto]

 

[IsolatedChaos]

I think we all digital self-harm on this site (unless you are a lurker).
How do you digital-self harm?

I post threads like this (among others). And my credit card information.

I think my lurking (and lately interacting) on this site is a way to self-harm. I know it may sound stupid being on here and all but I am on the fence still about trying to fight against my desire to die again, and maybe me being here is a slippery slope. Ultimately everything will be my decision, but I do feel like there is support to be found here and it's so easy to get sucked in. I'd like to trust myself to leave if I see it's becoming too much, but honestly... I am far from being in the right mind to know what I want right now.

 

[2messdup]

Looking at wpd, and looking at comments on the Telegraph (UK) newspaper articles about mental health and benefits. The first makes me feel sick at the horrors human beings will descend to and visibly enjoy and makes me ashamed at watching it. The second makes me feel hated, demonised and worthless. I prefer more physical forms of self harm because the mental torture of digital is far worse than the pain of physical methods.

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

 

[2messdup]

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

Yeah. Since I've got the info on my methods and that can't be undone, this site is beneficial. What's called peer support they'd say

 

[milkteacrown]

I sell myself online. I hate it, and that's why I do it.

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

I connect with you on that. I'm so sorry you go through this as well.

 

[TheAngelBornInHell]

digital selfharm for me is probably looking up things that i know will purposefully distress me and make me feel even worse about myself when im in an already bad headspace. nothing like gore or actual, physical self harm, im too much of a wuss for that weirdly enough, but reading up on things like if people think ctb is selfish, if god would hate me for ctb (despite me not following any religions), etc.

also as you said, being on this site and other places that have similar communities, although that one is debatable. i suppose it just depends on your view. this place gives me a sense of community, but at the same time i know people in my life wouldnt be happy if they knew i was on it, and they certainly would see it as a form of self harm.

sorry this is unrelated but i love idv!!

 

[JesiBel]

4chan is my digital self-harm, I have been visiting the site for years and it never ceases to amaze me.. we live with all kinds of lunatics without knowing it.

 

[Unhumanly.]

I digital self harm by looking up something I need but will never have, sure gore is a digital self harm, but it doesn't have an effect as great as that first thing

 

[Sando_1737]

I think we all digital self-harm on this site (unless you are a lurker).
How do you digital-self harm?

I post threads like this (among others). And my credit card information.

I think for me whenever I wanna die, I would look at graphic photos of people who committed suicide, because I often want to be like them. It's a strange way for me to cope.

 

[SophieMakesGames]

whenever I get really sad, especially after like ruining a friendship or fucking everything up again, like I typically do a lot, I will leave all servers I'm in, remove all social media, and then try not talking to anyone at all, for as long as I can.

I do it because well one it hurts, but two it makes me feel like I'm at least doing SOMETHING to help those I've hurt and potential new people I will hurt, not only am I removing myself from peoples lives and view while I'm going through shit, but I'm also not there to hurt anyone or spew any more venom,

honestly, my goal before was eventually one day moving far away from any form of civilization humanity or people and then living alone, but at that point why not die, the only reason I chose that and not the other is cus of a promise I made, but hey promises never last cus "things change" as everyone else says.

but this site doesn't seem like self harm to me, granted, I only created an account yesterday, but I lurked here for a bit before that, to see what it was like and how people where and also just some of the stuff that showed under "Recent posts" made me click.

the site seems more like a place to actually be honest and let your feelings out and talk about things you otherwise would be told "go away" "Get a therapist" "just do it already" or something else.

even in "venting" or "mental health" places, talking about the things which you can here, would get you either banned, removed, told not to, asked to not talk about it, be told it's a bit much, have it deleted, be told to get a therapist, get posted a stupid hotline (which btw, I've called, they hung up on me eventually lmao)
or ignored and not even know if anyone saw it.

while maybe some people are fine with only ever getting told "go away get a therapist" or "well sucks if you die bye bye" then never talking to you again because they "can't handle it" or anything else, but I'm not and this site seems like the place that allows you to talk.

but I haven't been here long enough to really talk I suppose, but I don't come here to self harm, I'd use isolating myself, for digital self harm.

 

[MelancholicMercury]

Digital self harm... for me that's just drawing vent art. but I do my fair share of the embarrassing depressive rant or... what Sophie said

whenever I get really sad, especially after like ruining a friendship or fucking everything up again, like I typically do a lot, I will leave all servers I'm in, remove all social media, and then try not talking to anyone at all, for as long as I can.

I do it because well one it hurts, but two it makes me feel like I'm at least doing SOMETHING to help those I've hurt and potential new people I will hurt, not only am I removing myself from peoples lives and view while I'm going through shit, but I'm also not there to hurt anyone or spew any more venom,

this... I relate completely. nothing like changing your profile picture on a bad day honestly

otherwise, sometimes I oddly put myself back into stressful moments. look at things that I know will make me sad. you know? old conversations or drama, things like that. but that can end up more bittersweet

 

[missanthrope]

I was a cam girl when I was pretty and also just sexually reckless. now I doom scroll Im in the US so its not difficult just wake up to whatever fresh hell is waiting

 

[soledad.virgen]

i sabotage all my internet friendships on purpose now

 

[silentcicada]

I like to use AI bots. They allow me a controlled environment to 'get hurt' without actually getting hurt.