Venting Denied my HRT and kicked out of psych ward

[3FailedAttemptss]

So yours truly ended up in the psych ward again again again - this time I decided to play ball and go after being told by the people at the suicide prevention clinic that they wanted to throw me in the ward. But uhhhh holy shit the people at the ward are so awful and uncaring. I asked to speak to a doctor cause I obviously need to take my hormones (trans woman and all) and they denied me that and have now thrown me out of the psych ward. They kept misgendering and shit and they fucking kicked me out. They kept saying that I said I wanted to leave (which I didn't) they just put words in my mouth and threw me out. Like what the fuck.

I told them I was scared of myself and they said they read my file and all but still they threw me out.

 

[deadbidaylight]

So yours truly ended up in the psych ward again again again - this time I decided to play ball and go after being told by the people at the suicide prevention clinic that they wanted to throw me in the ward. But uhhhh holy shit the people at the ward are so awful and uncaring. I asked to speak to a doctor cause I obviously need to take my hormones (trans woman and all) and they denied me that and have now thrown me out of the psych ward. They kept misgendering and shit and they fucking kicked me out. They kept saying that I said I wanted to leave (which I didn't) they just put words in my mouth and threw me out. Like what the fuck.

I told them I was scared of myself and they said they read my file and all but still they threw me out.

I am so sorry that this happened to you. It seems these resources are failing people left and right. I know they are saying that the hormones can exasperate suicidal thoughts so that might be why they're denying you them. I'm absolutely NOT saying that this is the right thing to do or in anyway humane whatsoever. Did they at least tell you why you weren't able to have them?

Are you able to re-admit yourself? If you are willingly going there and expressing the fear of hurting yourself, they are not legally allowed to turn you away. If they do, can you go over their heads to a higher up and voice your concern?

If something happens to you, the blood is definitely on their hands. And as mental health professionals, that is absolutely unacceptable. I am disgusted.

Again, I am so sorry that this has happened to you. You are clearly in need of help, and I truly hope you are able to get it. I value your attempts to help yourself. That is very commendable. Good on you for advocating for yourself. I hope it works out in your favour. Sending you good vibes and good luck

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

I am so sorry that this happened to you. It seems these resources are failing people left and right. I know they are saying that the hormones can exasperate suicidal thoughts so that might be why they're denying you them. I'm absolutely NOT saying that this is the right thing to do or in anyway humane whatsoever. Did they at least tell you why you weren't able to have them?

Are you able to re-admit yourself? If you are willingly going there and expressing the fear of hurting yourself, they are not legally allowed to turn you away. If they do, can you go over their heads to a higher up and voice your concern?

If something happens to you, the blood is definitely on their hands. And as mental health professionals, that is absolutely unacceptable. I am disgusted.

Again, I am so sorry that this has happened to you. You are clearly in need of help, and I truly hope you are able to get it. I value your attempts to help yourself. That is very commendable. Good on you for advocating for yourself. I hope it works out in your favour. Sending you good vibes and good luck

Well if I suddenly drop my hormones - that's just gonna make everything so much worse for me and my mood. That's just fucking absolutely with how your body fundamentally work. I told them this, it's like very important for me and well also the mental factor of stopping my transition.

They did give a reason, the pills weren't in their system. This wasn't an issue last time and it was simply changed it so i could continue my HRT. But this time the doctor said it was in no way possible?? About being readmitted, I could yes- but they were so rude to me like incredibly rude. The doctors literally walked out on me during our meeting. Now i'm sitting in the waiting room conversing with another patient and i was just told i have 30 minutes left to be picked up or they'll evict me from the waiting room.

It's just so fucked- I was admitted here yesterday as per the recommendation of a psychiatrist and psychologist at the suicide prevention clinic and now i've just been kicked out. I explicitly told the doctors I am afraid i'm gonna kms (i can't control myself so i can't stop it) and asked if they read my file (which they apparently did) and still they kicked me out.
I just- i don't know. I feel like i'm doing everything right? I attend my meetings at the suicide prevention clinic and I entertained their idea of admitting me to the psych ward. But like I'm just getting fucked in the ass here and I don't feel like i'm doing anything wrong. Am i just destined to CTB????

 

[ceilng_tile]

Is there a different psychiatric hospital near you? This one sounds so transphobic and negligent I'm worried that it would make your suicidality worse.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Is there a different psychiatric hospital near you? This one sounds so transphobic and negligent I'm worried that it would make your suicidality worse.

It's kinda difficult because technically this is the psych ward I belong to due to the regional healthcare system. So if I can be admitted elsewhere depends on the goodwill of the staff - so I'm really not sure if it's possible. Going private isn't really a thing either where I live so that's not an option either.

But dude yeah 100% makes my suicidality a billion million times worse, I'm fucking doing everything right and still being pushed to suicide. I just feel like giving up and letting my manic side I can't control finally kill me.

 

[deadbidaylight]

It's kinda difficult because technically this is the psych ward I belong to due to the regional healthcare system. So if I can be admitted elsewhere depends on the goodwill of the staff - so I'm really not sure if it's possible. Going private isn't really a thing either where I live so that's not an option either.

But dude yeah 100% makes my suicidality a billion million times worse, I'm fucking doing everything right and still being pushed to suicide. I just feel like giving up and letting my manic side I can't control finally kill me.

Please don't let your intrusive thoughts win. By taking all the steps you are shows that you have fight in you and a will to live. Hang onto that as tight as you can. You deserve that fight. You've already overcome so much to be where you are right now.

I would maybe suggest giving the other one a call and see if it's possible to be admitted to it even though it's out of your region. If you explain the situation to them maybe they will allow it.

Also, can you call your psychiatrist and explain what happened? I can't imagine they'd be very pleased to hear that one of their patients were treated so horribly.

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

I've went voluntarily as an inpatient twice. Discovered a sociopath and a psychopath in their staff. Reported it but nothing was done. These are fucked up places. Definitely call your care team like it was suggested in the post above. They can make the case to a better psych ward so you can be admitted and get the treatment you deserve

 

[Cauliflour]

The people who work at that place are idiots. You're sent there to get better mental health and what do they do? Take away the main thing that gives you good mental health!

Like transphobia aside, that's just a terrible business strategy. If people feel worse when they leave then they're sure as hell gonna tell everyone they know to avoid it and bada bing bada boom business no more.

Hope you're doing well though. Or at least, better than you were when you were in that shit stain of a so called "hospital".