Delivery Accident

[Achromatix]

Quick Story Time - I Need Advice BAD

My KN was delivered while I was at work and unaware. I knew it needed a signature so I figured I would just reschedule for a Saturday. Unknowing to me, my friend popped in... They thought they were doing me a favor by helping me obtain a package and signed for it for me...... I got home shortly after, and they were so proud of themselves for helping me "oh that was great timing! I got your package for you! you almost missed them, but don't worry I gotchu."

I feel SO much guilt. I don't want them to get in trouble when I use the KN as they genuinely had NO idea what they were doing. They know I'm suicidal, and I love them dearly, but they aren't very smart in general. I don't even know how to explain to them the purpose of the package they signed their name for.

Any advice... please?

 

[mmmattisss]

Your roommate usually wouldn't get in trouble just for signing for a package if they genuinely didn't know what it was or what it'd be used for. People sign for each other's packages all the time. The responsibility would mostly fall on the person who ordered it and intended to use it. It's probably best for now keep them on the blindside of things. if your plan is to go without guilt

 

[bruised_reed]

Sorry for the ignorance, but what is KN?

 

[ladidabi]

Signature is just proof of accepting the parcel. You can literally sign a package however you want, even just scribbles or "x". I personally don't even use my own signature because their lil screens are horrible to use. The postal worker doesn't check what the signature says because it doesn't matter much.

Since the friend doesn't know the contents, they are not responsible. This is different to traveling with a bag containing someone else's harmful material.

 

[dagger_of_truth]

I think if you got rid of the outer box they saw, and any receipts inside, then no one would ever make the connection. If it's safe to put the KN in a generic container without it losing effectiveness, then you could get rid of the container it came in too. Then I believe the fact that you used KN specifically would only be known from a toxicology report, and all anyone would really know is that you poisoned yourself.

 

[TooMuchHasHappened]

Would I be right in thinking that you are concerned that should you use the KN to CTB, then whoever is doing the investigation will trace the package and identify who signed for it, and then make you friend aware. Then your friend will have to live with that for the rest of their life?

If that is the case, and I'm assuming it is, then what I would do is dispose of that order, therefore eliminating your friend of any involvement whatsoever, and reorder. Now, obviously, everyone would know that your friend cannot be responsible in any way, because they did not know, but still, it wouldn't be nice for your friend to find out that a package that they signed for was used for what you intend. And also, knowing what the authorities are like, they could even drag your friend in for an interview or something (to eliminate them from their enquiries), which would obviously be very traumatic for them, especially given the tragic circumstances.

That said, what I would do myself is reorder, but this time I'd make sure that I was definitely at home to personally receive it, or if that wasn't possible, have it delivered to alternative location or one of those delivery boxes or something. I'd even go a step further, for even more peace of mind, and make a note of this situation to leave somewhere. Because the investigators might trace both deliveries and your friend might still feel guilty. But if you personally leave a note, stating that you used the second delivery because your friend signed for the first one and you didn't want them to feel bad, and that is the only reason that you ordered it again, then they would have no reason to say anything about it to your friend. Even if they did, but told your friend the truth that you used the second order because you didn't want them to feel bad, then I'm sure your friend would smile up at you in heaven, if you believe in that.

I'm new on here, and I kind of feel guilty for giving anyone any advice on here at all, especially considering the nature of the subject. But we're all on here for the same reason (we can't live like this anymore), and whilst I will not give any advice on CTB, or influence yours or anyone else's decision regarding what you want to do with your life, if I can give advice on how to reduce, or preferably eliminate, any trauma to those left behind, then I will do so.

I hope this helps