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joegoes100

joegoes100

All Over The Place
Jan 18, 2026
53
I was planning on ctb tonight, but I've been getting the craziest Deja vu of my life today and it's getting worse and worse. I don't believe in divine intervention/fate/destiny but this is just making me feel weird.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,391
Ha. For some reason I read Deja Vu and thought you were headed to a strip club before ctb. We had a strip club named that in my town years ago. I'm sure there are quite a few of them around in various cities named Deja Vu.
 
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joegoes100

joegoes100

All Over The Place
Jan 18, 2026
53
Ha. For some reason I read Deja Vu and thought you were headed to a strip club before ctb. We had a strip club named that in my town years ago. I'm sure there are quite a few of them around in various cities named Deja Vu.
LOL
 
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joegoes100

joegoes100

All Over The Place
Jan 18, 2026
53
What was it about?
It started when I ate earlier, I just felt strange, like I was dreaming. Then earlier I was writing a reply and it felt like I already wrote it and I felt like I was just repeating my self. Then I was doing a crossword and felt like I answered 3 of the questions before. But I couldn't place my finger on when these events occurred before.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
84
i had the reverse kinda before one of my attempts a month or so ago, things seemed unfamiliar even a person who i knew well and saw often looked like a stranger. it was so weird.
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
184
Happens all the time but it's weird all of them are small things. Very small moments. Ig our brains are too bored with suicidal thoughts so trying to do something new by guessing the future or dejavu 😇
 
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finalshot12

finalshot12

New Member
Jan 15, 2026
2
Planning on CTB today as well. These past few days, honestly weeks, I've had continuous Deja Vu. Sends me down a spiral wondering if life is a loop.. but whatever. More of an excuse to CTB. :)
 

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