Help Decisions decisions

[snowsilence]

[please dont bully me for emt grammer ik its bad]

Basically I want to CTB (like most ppl on here/j) but I obviously don't want to end up brain dead, I also don't want to be suffering for like a long long time . So i have a few ways that I can do (i don't have a car rn sadly so it will be in my house at night unless it's said otherwise.)

1. Overdose—
I commonly use Benadryl to sleep and i have am able to get 100 bottle tablets of it. Idk how much i would need but possibly 3 bottle ? This method only scares me because of the hallucinations. If this were my method i would take a few before all of it just so i could wait an hour or two then take all the rest and go to bed before I start seeing the hatman/j

2. Wrists—
I have sharp razors that could possibly let me bleed out. Though i am not an avid cutter and I have no clue if I would have the balls to do it. If this were my method I would have to make sure my house is empty cus I feel like it'll be noticeable

3. Belt—
I don't have access to ropes but i have a plethora of belts that I could use instead. This way scares me just because of how people have described this, I don't know if its like normal suffocation or if it's different cus there is pressure on the neck.

4. Jump—
There is a massive cell tower thing near a local park, I could scale this and jump from it, I don't know the actual size of it but if i fall in the right way ill definitely die. The only reason I dont want to use this method is because it is near a school. If I use this method I'll do it on a weekend and call the police right before I jump so my body wont traumatize some poor kid.

/genuinely any advice helps, hope y'all have a good night.

 

[leftoperish]

An overdose might not cut it cause i tried using pregabalin once, ended up having a fucking awesome trip….(to the ER). Took 28 of them pills btw all 150mg the highest strength i could find, wrist is effective but could still be reversed i know that cause i have some scars that agree with my point (although there's a method i read that's quick and hard to reverse due to the amount of blood loss in a short period of time, but those cuts look pro level and our brains aren't really wired for a deep level of self inflicted pain and might end up crapping out too early if you aren't a seasoned pro and help would be on its way) and the easiest arteries are close to our jugular. belt i have no experience with this but i know suffocating your own self would be hard cause just like what i was explaining with our brain and self infliction it's hard/impossible in certain circumstances, except you mean hanging in which case I'd say try to make account of weight and all, but then again a rope would suffice wouldn't you say?, jumping seems the most reasonable but, (and this is just a personal opinion thing and should no way account to your decision making process) i really want to go too, like badly, but i do love and respect my people and some humans i love, and have come to love me and would want them to have a body worth using for all their memorial processes humans love so much and if at all i think I (and should not be taken as you or anyone else i just talk a lot and i enjoy oversharing) want to give them that. But make sure it's high enough if you don't care about stuff like that cause it'll be more of a shit life if it fails if you understand what i mean but hey stick around for a while there are some crazy methods I've come to discover here on the forum it'll blow your mind literally lol Godspeed friend may your rest come sooner and as successful as you crave

 

[snowsilence]

An overdose might not cut it cause i tried using pregabalin once, ended up having a fucking awesome trip….(to the ER). Took 28 of them pills btw all 150mg the highest strength i could find, wrist is effective but could still be reversed i know that cause i have some scars that agree with my point (although there's a method i read that's quick and hard to reverse due to the amount of blood loss in a short period of time, but those cuts look pro level and our brains aren't really wired for a deep level of self inflicted pain and might end up crapping out too early if you aren't a seasoned pro and help would be on its way) and the easiest arteries are close to our jugular. belt i have no experience with this but i know suffocating your own self would be hard cause just like what i was explaining with our brain and self infliction it's hard/impossible in certain circumstances, except you mean hanging in which case I'd say try to make account of weight and all, but then again a rope would suffice wouldn't you say?, jumping seems the most reasonable but, (and this is just a personal opinion thing and should no way account to your decision making process) i really want to go too, like badly, but i do love and respect my people and some humans i love, and have come to love me and would want them to have a body worth using for all their memorial processes humans love so much and if at all i think I (and should not be taken as you or anyone else i just talk a lot and i enjoy oversharing) want to give them that. But make sure it's high enough if you don't care about stuff like that cause it'll be more of a shit life if it fails if you understand what i mean but hey stick around for a while there are some crazy methods I've come to discover here on the forum it'll blow your mind literally lol Godspeed friend may your rest come sooner and as successful as you crave

Thanks, I get what ya mean and i used to have another account before this one. (I remember seeing some crazy ritual method) I may go with jumping because of how straight forward it is but idk. Thanks for the advice.

 

[SomewhereNew]

I can't think of a worse way to die than option 1 I can't imagine dying when it feels like you're in a waking nightmare. I took 40 once because I figured a gram would kill me nope I kept blacking out completely forgot I took anything at all and objects were yelling loudly at each other out loud saw hat man. He said peekaboo at me between the door frame and door standing behind it. If my bladder was functioning correctly would have pissed myself right there out of feeling full horror movie dread. I was terrified but wasn't close to death I don't think 0/10