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Parnate

Specialist
Dec 16, 2021
308
I often daydream about going into the forest or some mountain and preparing my SN . But just as I am about to drink SN someone comes and stops me and I am saved . They just don't save me but I am admitted to a hospital and taken care off. Do I want to be saved, do I want sympathy and pity ?
What do you guys think ??
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
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I daydream of suicide with SN every day
 
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Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
I don't expect that is much pity to be found in today's world myself, but no anyway.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,331
I think the thought of someone caring about us, enough to take an interest can be appealing. You're in a better position to answer though. Is the thought of maybe getting more support appealing?

I think, as part of the course, we likely do run through all the outcomes in our minds. Mine have also run along the failure/ intervention and, psyche ward path. Mostly, that fills me with dread though. Other people finding out. My family, friends, employers. The strangeness of being there and being under their control. Being told I was sick. I'm not convinced that I even am. I doubt I'd be so very different to the staff working there!

I suppose, when I'm frightened that I'd find that hard to cope with and it makes me frightened about attempting, I tell myself- I'll just have to try to cope with any outcome. Maybe they would be kind. Maybe it would be better than I expect. That's more to try to reassure myself though. It's not the desired outcome.
 

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