CTB with alc and hydroxozine?

[wealllovesodium]

This isn't me asking for help on how to ctb, this is me asking if I'm about to. I just took a fuckton of hydroxozine to calm down and then decided it would be a good idea to drink half a bottle of triple sec. If this does end up being my last thing on here I'm sorry to everyone I love. But don't blame yourselves. This was purely me being a dumbass.
I'm gonna force myself to throw it up

This isn't me asking for help on how to ctb, this is me asking if I'm about to. I just took a fuckton of hydroxozine to calm down and then decided it would be a good idea to drink half a bottle of triple sec. If this does end up being my last thing on here I'm sorry to everyone I love. But don't blame yourselves. This was purely me being a dumbass.
I'm gonna force myself to throw it up

i threw up everything.