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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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This is a pre-made post for when I know I'll be gone. I plan to have this post on my birthday... the day I'm supposed to turn 27.

I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic.
I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making so many attempts and at this point I want it to be overkill.

My plan is to fast for 12 hours
Take 2mg of klonopin a hour before I take everything.
I have 4 small bottles of oral anesthetic which would come out to around 8.8g.
And I plan to take two shots of benzocaine powder mixed with vodka... which will be 25g.

So in total I'm taking 33.8g ...
I'm nervous but I can't stand to keep living and filling a role that has already served its purpose.

I'll be the first to ctb using this method on this forum and I hope with my death it helps others find peace as well.

 
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UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Student
May 4, 2025
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Was always nice reading your posts, but I could see how much you were suffering. Hopefully you're resting peacefully now.
 
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sweetdrowning

sweetdrowning

living ghost
Jan 2, 2026
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I hope it was peaceful for you... I will miss seeing you on the forum. Rest easy
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

Member
Nov 30, 2025
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I've been reading your posts and you've always been incredibly helpful with methods. I hope you're successful and reach peace, Hela. Thank you for the contributions to this forum and community. Safe travels, sweetie ā¤ļø

Also, great music taste!
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
173
Damn... Please.... Don't go.... but it's selfish of me to want you here...
 
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Riven

Riven

Member
Oct 24, 2025
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i hope that you've managed to find peace now. you were a great part of this forum and i'll miss seeing you around. i wish you the best in whatever comes after this life ā¤ļø
 
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spero_meliora

spero_meliora

In hope for better things.
Jan 13, 2025
258
i hope you've managed to finally find peace, hela. you were so good in trying to help everyone, and even in this thread you thought to document your method.

heartbroken to finally see this thread, really glad i got to chat with you a little beforehandšŸ’” hope your journey was a soft one.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
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goodbye, I hope you have found your peace šŸ¤
 
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Baisley

Student
Jan 18, 2025
176
I hope that she did find peace because who knows,.she could.be hospitalized right now and saved. We really don't know at this point. If she is in severe agony or anything it's not like she could respond yet or have deleted her pre made post. But I do hope she is at peace .
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Well, damn you. I was going to ask about putting our heads together on this method. Guess you got something working.

Seriously though, it takes a lot of nerve to try an untested method and I am impressed with your resolve. I hope you found peace. šŸ•Æļø
 
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Baisley

Student
Jan 18, 2025
176
does anyone know if she's still alive?
I am wondering about this also. We are assuming she CTB based on this post but what if she is in a coma or something and can't respond or delete this post before it was sent. This is such a new method who knows what happened but Lord knows she could be in dire shape in a hospital but still "technically" alive. If it worked though then this is a promising method. I'm just not sure if I would try it yet without knowing more or if she is actually suffering in a hospital or in a coma.
 
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MaxStirner

My life is my property.
Jan 27, 2026
15
I am wondering about this also. We are assuming she CTB based on this post but what if she is in a coma or something and can't respond or delete this post before it was sent. This is such a new method who knows what happened but Lord knows she could be in dire shape in a hospital but still "technically" alive. If it worked though then this is a promising method. I'm just not sure if I would try it yet without knowing more or if she is actually suffering in a hospital or in a coma.
If no one here knew her personally, finding out her condition is going to be astronomically difficult. If it can be proven a successful method, then I suggest a new sticky resource is in order. Especially with SN coming under more legislation (potentially) in the U.S., which was why Jisatsu embarked on the benzocaine path to begin with.
 
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Baisley

Student
Jan 18, 2025
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If no one here knew her personally, finding out her condition is going to be astronomically difficult. If it can be proven a successful method, then I suggest a new sticky resource is in order. Especially with SN coming under more legislation (potentially) in the U.S., which was why Jisatsu embarked on the benzocaine path to begin with.
I agree. And hopefully it did work and Jisatsu is at peace. I'd hate for her to be suffering she has suffered enough in life..
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
251
i hope you can be at peace hela. thank you for everything.
 

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