CTB or live a depressed life sprinkled with good moments

[offbalance]

fr those seem like my only options.

 

[flip_bug]

Happiness is temporary relief of deprivation/pain. Most of life is mediocre. It is not fair

 

[plzoffme]

That is how I feel man. I feel like I see through this game and do not want to play it anymore. I do have moments of joy but overall its mostly utter boredom mixed in
with depression and the cycle never stops.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

My life is so shit that basically ever since I was a kid I had already accepted that I would have to spend the rest of my life being passively suicidal and having to tough out a depressing pseudo-existence, but then I eventually came around to realizing that CTB is the way.

 

[woofwag]

From one of my favorite movies, Everything Everywhere All At Once:
"Joy: So, what? You're just going to ignore everything else? … Here, all we'll get are a few specks of time where any of this actually makes sense."
Evelyn: Then I will cherish these few specks of time."
The choice is up to you. But aren't those moments worth something? And even through all the shit and the frustration, the pain and heartbreak and depression, there can be beauty in that, too. Finding some relief at the top of that hill, even if it all comes crashing down again, it can make those moments of struggle satisfying in of itself. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.

I'm not going to pretend I'm any less suicidal than you. I literally have poison sitting in my closet rn. But I'm holding out for now. The fact that you are too is a struggle worth being proud of yourself for. I hope you can find those moments, no matter how few and far between they are. And if you do choose to die, then I hope you can find peace in that too.

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

My life is so shit that basically ever since I was a kid I had already accepted that I would have to spend the rest of my life being passively suicidal and having to tough out a depressing pseudo-existence, but then I eventually came around to realizing that CTB is the way.

Just need to say: goated username. One of the best in all of black metal

 

[itsgone2]

fr those seem like my only options.

You've really cut to the heart of it. An amazing way to frame it. For me, I'd rather ctb. Right now there basically are no good parts anyway.