Discussion Ctb is hard because of indoctrinations and psychological power not of itself

[fkyou]

It makes me realize: it's not that I'm in love with my life-my life is awful nonetheless -or that death is hard,its the psychological indoctrination our family have over us. After all life is a big bucket of delusions and addictions.
The control they have over us, they raised us fed us been with us in everything,they taught us what's right or wrong, acceptable and not acceptable,even our emotions and thaughts are a product of that,the guilt we feel the shame the regret -why would someone who's life Is shit regret anything?or feel ashamed, it's not like they did that to themselves (except some cases),this is part of the delusions the -what could have been- the power our family has over us, someone whose life gone to shit decides to ctb full stop,it sounds right, but family gave itself the last word even on that.

(English is not my first language)

 

[MyShadow]

My family has nothing to say about my life or death. Their apathy of what I am going through now gives me the freedom to end my life, and I don't care how or if it affects them or not.

 

[kopebaldy]

Honestly, suicide of its self is quite hard.

It's hard to find anchor point for full suspension, it's hard to find the sweet spot for partial, it's hard to find SN, it's hard to find N, it's hard to build fancy contraptions, it's hard to get guns, it's hard to ask it's hard to find a place undisturbed...

Family's psychological influence, at least in my case, is pretty much irrelevant.

 

[paranoidpeasant]

It is hard. It's like the body is indestructible, though you will carry scars and noticable organ damage.

That's actually the reason I'm here, at all.

If it were straight forward and simple, I wouldn't be here.

 

[PI3.14]

I don't give a f*uk about what my family think or say.

It's my life, my body, my choice.

Personally, the only obstacle is SI, once I overcome it I'll be dead.