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MrBrownUpsideD

MrBrownUpsideD

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Apr 9, 2023
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I plan on CTB by full-suspension hanging using 12mm polypropylene rope in a secluded forest at night using a slip knot for the noose. I have written a note emphasizing that my death is nobody's fault, acknowledging the kinds of emotions they may be feeling and stating my wish that they seek support. I don't elaborate on my reasons for CTB because I fear it might leave them with even more regrets and questions. I know how I'm going to distribute this note without risking CTB interruption, as well as how I'm going to contact the authorities to minimize the risk of a stranger stumbling upon my corpse. I'm gonna wear a face mask and sunglasses to minimize the risk of people untrained in handling corpses getting traumatized, as well as fasting 24 hours before.

I'm going to try to delete my digital footprint as much as possible to protect the integrity of this forum. I have no inheritance worth distributing on paper. I'm making sure I have no negative interactions with friends that might leave lingering regrets, since humans are quite prone to overestimating their contribution to someone's suicide because of grief.

Is there anything else I'm missing? Also don't bother exclaiming how there is no minimizing the impact of suicide on relatives. I am fully aware of the consequences
 
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Kitsune_BCN

Kitsune_BCN

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Sep 8, 2025
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I'm (I think) a very logical person and all you say makes absolute sense.

Minimizing the impact is probably the most important thing.

Don't overthink it: you are doing it right 💖💖💖

Will be thinking of you. Good luck.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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however you decide, I hope everything goes well for you and you find the peace you desire 🫂:heart:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I hope you find peace. :heart:
 
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azelf

azelf

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Sep 7, 2025
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i also plan to ctb in eleven days! good luck :)
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

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Aug 31, 2025
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good luck mr brown
this world is not what it seems
death is cessation of the bodies movement because what it makes move (you) has left
i will die soon too!
Bless Jesus Christ may he be loved forever
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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Hi Mr Brown,

You seem to have everything thoughtfully planned out and all of the variables accounted for. It's truly sad that people who reach a rational conclusion that life is no longer worth living must be forced to go to such extreme measures.

You seem to be very rational about everything and not acting on impulse, which unfortunately some do. In those cases I think it's a mistake. But with people like you all I can do is wish you a peaceful journey.

Death is a doorway, not an ending,
 
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