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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
I've been clean for 3 months and it's the first time since I was 15 that I wasn't trying to get high every week. It really fucking sucks... because it's all I can think about most days. I'm getting all twitchy and gritting my teeth again over the idea of just being high..

It's making me overly depressed most days ... Gods I'm such a addict
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
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My addictions are food and internet. Everyone got theirs.
 
bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
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Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
 
DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
I have never been drunk (few ciders dont make you drunk) I just have high dislike for alcohol. I saw how alcohol made people act. I dont want to lose control like that.
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
The most popular recording of someone taking sn was by someone named strawberry panic online. I love blueberries.... and It's a play on her name as a way to honor her.
I have never been drunk (few ciders dont make you drunk) I just have high dislike for alcohol. I saw how alcohol made people act. I dont want to lose control like that.
Losing control is the best part imo 🙃
 
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bankai

bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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The most popular recording of someone taking sn was by someone named strawberry panic online. I love blueberries.... and It's a play on her name as a way to honor her.
Strawberry Panic is actually a name of an old anime. That's what she was named after, I guess. Nice.
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
Strawberry Panic is actually a name of an old anime. That's what she was named after, I guess. Nice.
Yeah I've heard of it , I've been meaning to watch it 😅
 
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Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
I've used crystal meth daily since I was 16. I've had my fair share of withdrawals from other substances. I definitely understand that craving, Its tough, they suck. But hey kudos to you for three months! Being an addict is hard, sorry to hear you're going through this. 🫂
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
I've used crystal meth daily since I was 16. I've had my fair share of withdrawals from other substances. I definitely understand that craving, Its tough, they suck. But hey kudos to you for three months! Being an addict is hard, sorry to hear you're going through this. 🫂
I know I'm going to relapse on something eventually and when that time comes I hope I overdose and die .😁
 
Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
I know I'm going to relapse on something eventually and when that time comes I hope I overdose and die .😁
Well I wouldn't recommend meth in you relapse then because its (nearly) impossible to overdose fatally on
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

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Well I wouldn't recommend meth in you relapse then because its (nearly) impossible to overdose fatally on
I know I've done meth 😅 I was thinking something like heroin
 
Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
I know I've done meth 😅 I was thinking something like heroin
That just made me realize I actually dont know a single person who uses heroin (except on the off occasion) everybody uses fent around here
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
That just made me realize I actually dont know a single person who uses heroin (except on the off occasion) everybody uses fent around here
Yeah fent is honestly replacing heroin usage ...that might be the call. Idk.
I just really want to get high .
 
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Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
Yeah fent is honestly replacing heroin usage ...that might be the call. Idk.
I just really want to get high .
My plug when I asked for fent sent someone to my house to make sure I was mentally okay… like a welfare check but without the cops plus he wouldn't let me use fent unless being supervised to make sure I didn't die ;-;
Ya it's understandable you want to get high
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
My plug when I asked for fent sent someone to my house to make sure I was mentally okay… like a welfare check but without the cops plus he wouldn't let me use fent unless being supervised to make sure I didn't die ;-;
Ya it's understandable you want to get high
What drugs do you enjoy if you had to say?
 
Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
What drugs do you enjoy if you had to say?
Meth is my drug of choice but I like molly, ketamine, acid, dillys and valium oh I like alcohol but socially. What drugs do you enjoy or were doing before?
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
Meth is my drug of choice but I like molly, ketamine, acid, dillys and valium oh I like alcohol but socially. What drugs do you enjoy or were doing before?
Weed,oxy,dph,acid,lsd,shrooms,weed, and ummm I drink occasionally
 
Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
Weed,oxy,dph,acid,lsd,shrooms,weed, and ummm I drink occasionally
I really dont like weed I avoid it idk why but I start acting all nervous when someone offers me some. Im surprised you dont like K or have you not tried it before based on the drugs you listed it seems like you would like it or maybe Im projecting my like for it lol
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I'm sure I would have these cravings if I did drugs. I can be very bad with binge eating. That's partly why I've never been tempted to try. Don't trust myself.
 
Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
I really dont like weed I avoid it idk why but I start acting all nervous when someone offers me some. Im surprised you dont like K or have you not tried it before based on the drugs you listed it seems like you would like it or maybe Im projecting my like for it lol
I've never tried it , I've always wanted to ... that I've wanted to try datara and DMT 😅
 
Emerita

Emerita

Time is terminal
Jan 16, 2025
202
I've never tried it , I've always wanted to ... that I've wanted to try datara and DMT 😅
I mean idk you but I feel like you would like it sadly its a shorter high but I compare every drug to meth which is a long high. But K and some good music is something else oh if you like K you probably would like molly but molly comedowns are horrible
I just realized this drug talk probably is making your cravings worse or at least not helping my bad Im sorry
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
718
I mean idk you but I feel like you would like it sadly its a shorter high but I compare every drug to meth which is a long high. But K and some good music is something else oh if you like K you probably would like molly but molly comedowns are horrible
I just realized this drug talk probably is making your cravings worse or at least not helping my bad Im sorry
I've had Molly, it's great but yeah the comedown made it not really unappealing...
 

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