Coping with fear of failure

[desperatemen83]

Hello world,

I introduced myself lately with a thread describing my current situation. I am stuck between wanting to leave and fear of failiure. I live in Europe, in stupid, poor country and I see no future here, but can' t find a way to leave, except... I know we are all slaves of society, but good job could make my life better, but I lost hope a long time ago as I am living here. Another thing how do you guys overcome a fear of failure? Every now and then I see someone lose leg because of CTB, end up brain dead and that is the obe of the reasons why I am still here.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Can't you relocate?

 

[desperatemen83]

in theory yes, but in reality I have poor social skills due to been non binary-trans woman, moderate to severe social phobia... It's difficult

 

[RedDEE]

I think a lot of us are in the same boat, me included. I've had a shotgun barrell in my mouth, and still was too afraid of failing to pull the trigger. I think the fear of failure is just our survival instinct in disguise. I believe that when our pain increases, then our pain will outweigh our fear, and we will attempt suicide. Or our fear will always outweigh our pain and desire to die, and that fear will lead us to living long lives and we die of natural causes.

People like me, that are chronically suicidal, have an internal tug-of-war between our fear/survival instinct, and a desire to die.

But some people have a strong desire to die, but have no reliable way to CTB. But when someone has a reliable method with a low chance of failure, then it's an all-out brawl of Survival Instinct vs Fear. Let me ask you this, if you had a 100% reliable method that wouldn't cause any pain, do yoi think you would still have fear? Do you think your fear will out-weigh your desire for death?

 

[desperatemen83]

You make a really good point. I been through a lot in my life and part of me want to stay here just because I survived a lot of rough things. I tried to end my life with TCA-s long time ago, it was peacefull and probably reliable. That was almost 20 years ago, (yeah I am not that young). Nowdays, they don't even sell that brand of ami. in my country and new brand is a two times weaker.and less reliable. In case I could get N, I wan't be thinking very long.

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

I have come to the concert I'll never address this and just need to go through with it and hope for the best.