twistedtransistor69
I can't survive if this is all that's real
- Nov 23, 2024
- 33
I don't want to be suicidal, I want to be happy. But at the same time I guess I don't because if I really wanted to be happy, wouldn't I work on myself and take the steps needed to improve my life? Every day I choose to stay the same, I choose to be sad. I hate it but I'm safe and comfortable and I'm too scared to do anything, literally. I'm too scared to leave my house some days. I'm miserable but I'm safe and I guess I want that more than being happy. I can't wait to cbt so I'll never feel sad or scared ever again.
