Concealing identity for deliveries in canada?

[anxiousguineapig]

So, i'm in a slightly unusual situation. I don't have any specific plans to ctb, but because of general anxiety about the world and my own life I have the specific goal to always be able to ctb if/when I choose to. I currently have SN from IC I bought a few years ago, but its expiry date is approaching and I want to replace it. I have found a few websites where I could buy KN but my concern is, they are all located outside of Canada where I live and thus will be going through customs. I had a wellness check a couple years ago (after they seized IC's records) so I would rather there not be a record of me buying it with my real name, if possible, since there is probably a record of me previously buying SN. However, if I happen to not be home when it's delivered, I'll have to pick it up and they generally require ID, which obviously ties it to my identity. I imagine a PO box would also have to be registered in my name.

Does anyone know any ways around this? The simplest thing I can think of is to find a supplier in canada but so far I haven't had any luck (if anyone happens to know one please pm me!). Otherwise I'd need some way to not order it in my real name while still having a reasonably high chance of getting delivered, if anyone has any ideas i'd be interested to hear. Most of what I've found is pretty expensive because of the international shipping costs, so I'd rather not have to try multiple times if possible.

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

Hi, If you don't have any specific plans, don't bother so much, I also have a ton of general anxiety about the world, but one thing is for certain, if things do go to shit, like real shit, dying won't be that hard to accomplish, and you could always ask a 3rd party to like buy that for you i guess? Or like, just be on a watchlist, if you are actually gonna say "bye bye" and quit, then being on a watchlist doesn't really matter.
Love the name, I preffer rats a lil to guinea pigs, but I'm still all for rodents.

You can always get a rope aswell, and yes you may say that you don't like that method, but maybe that's a sign for you that the pain is still bearable enough.

 

[anxiousguineapig]

fair enough haha, I am actually pretty confident I could make night-night work (I can make myself pass out pretty consistently that way) but the lack of a conclusive way to test it makes me nervous. I also probably have access to sodium azide which is nastier but still very effective and certainly would be an option in a really desperate situation. But in terms of things that are very unlikely to go wrong or have unexpected effects, SN/KN seem ideal which helps my anxiety a lot. Having them around is more of a psychological help than anything but it's cheaper than therapy at least!