LostAllHope666
Nothing;Nowhere
- Dec 7, 2025
- 13
I tried today, I really did. I spent all day cooking and doing chores just for myself, because I don't have anyone to make a holiday dinner for me anymore.
I'm currently in a lot of pain because of it, and my body is mad but whatever it is what it is. Unfortunately I am painfully slow to cook anything which leads me sometimes to be cooking until 4am, or this case 1am.
My living situation isn't the best, but I'd be in a tent without it. Let's just say I had to ask for a key to use an extra fridge, and the person I asked gave me attitude about it. Looked annoyed I even came to the office door, refused to look at or even talk to me, and when I returned the key the social worker slammed the door in my face. On Christmas. Not even a fake happy holiday or whatever.
They're a night staff so its not like my timing was awful, they're supposed to support people living here 24 hours 7 days a week. I understand if they're going through shit maybe, but again, a social workers job is to literally be there for others and support. I don't deserve a door slammed in my face.
People in reality treat me so poorly man. I'd understand if I said or did anything to warrant that, but I'm literally avoiding interaction as much as possible, I never do anything to cause problems because I fucking hate problems, I have enough as is.
God I knew asking for this shit would end in a crap interaction that triggers my "people definitely hate me" issues but I wasn't going to leave out the food I just made like a psychopath or something.
I wish I could leave this place, but im literally stuck here given the housing crisis, and I'm constantly made to feel like shit for ever needing anything or ever asking for help. It's supportive housing for fucks sake, where the fuck is my support?! God forbid I actually want to talk to anyone when I get depressed and suicidal.
I asked for help yesterday too with my groceries and whoever spoke with me from the office was so weirdly angry and aggressive as they told me no and complained about being understaffed even though there was more than 1 person and I wasn't far away either. It made me regret ever asking and feeling stupid that I did because I knew they would say no. They always say no.
I can't tell if its because they genuinely can't or if its because they just hate me or their job and want to hide in the office and play on their phone or sleep instead of working. Which at that point I ask, why the fuck are you a social worker at a high needs support house?
This would be more bareable maybe if I had anywhere else to go, anyplace else to be, but yeah this is all I got. No people or anything. Just tried really hard to make it a Christmas thats good for myself... and of course it was ruined by someone giving me a negative interaction. Man whatever.
Hope whoever reads this is having a better time, and if not well, we're in this together I suppose.
I'm currently in a lot of pain because of it, and my body is mad but whatever it is what it is. Unfortunately I am painfully slow to cook anything which leads me sometimes to be cooking until 4am, or this case 1am.
My living situation isn't the best, but I'd be in a tent without it. Let's just say I had to ask for a key to use an extra fridge, and the person I asked gave me attitude about it. Looked annoyed I even came to the office door, refused to look at or even talk to me, and when I returned the key the social worker slammed the door in my face. On Christmas. Not even a fake happy holiday or whatever.
They're a night staff so its not like my timing was awful, they're supposed to support people living here 24 hours 7 days a week. I understand if they're going through shit maybe, but again, a social workers job is to literally be there for others and support. I don't deserve a door slammed in my face.
People in reality treat me so poorly man. I'd understand if I said or did anything to warrant that, but I'm literally avoiding interaction as much as possible, I never do anything to cause problems because I fucking hate problems, I have enough as is.
God I knew asking for this shit would end in a crap interaction that triggers my "people definitely hate me" issues but I wasn't going to leave out the food I just made like a psychopath or something.
I wish I could leave this place, but im literally stuck here given the housing crisis, and I'm constantly made to feel like shit for ever needing anything or ever asking for help. It's supportive housing for fucks sake, where the fuck is my support?! God forbid I actually want to talk to anyone when I get depressed and suicidal.
I asked for help yesterday too with my groceries and whoever spoke with me from the office was so weirdly angry and aggressive as they told me no and complained about being understaffed even though there was more than 1 person and I wasn't far away either. It made me regret ever asking and feeling stupid that I did because I knew they would say no. They always say no.
I can't tell if its because they genuinely can't or if its because they just hate me or their job and want to hide in the office and play on their phone or sleep instead of working. Which at that point I ask, why the fuck are you a social worker at a high needs support house?
This would be more bareable maybe if I had anywhere else to go, anyplace else to be, but yeah this is all I got. No people or anything. Just tried really hard to make it a Christmas thats good for myself... and of course it was ruined by someone giving me a negative interaction. Man whatever.
Hope whoever reads this is having a better time, and if not well, we're in this together I suppose.
