Catching the bus today

[braintorture]

Hello

Today is the day. I recorded my goodbye video and I have my vodka and rope ready.

I'm finally getting peace. I walked 1 hour and 30 mins in total and I'm at 1200m in height in the mountains. I won't be found.

My method is partial suspension hanging and jumping if it fails.

Thank you for everything SaSu. I'll send a message when the rope is hanged and I do it.

I will do it in the night so no one can see me.

24/12/25 11:10 am. Will catch the bus by tonight.

For pictures see the attachments.

I'll be able to talk here a little bit while waiting for my fate :)

 

[corpse]

I hope you find peace.

 

[NutOrat]

I'm sorry it had to come to this. I wish you only peace and rest from all the pain you've endured. You're always welcome back here, don't feel bad about it whatsoever.

 

[reb]

Looks like a beautiful an peaceful place to ctb. wishing you luck, hoping you find the peace you deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace!

 

[OliverGarden]

How are you psyching yourself up for partial? I thought of it when I was younger, but in practice, it seemed too agonizing (unless I did it wrong?), so I chickened out. I'm considering ctb for within the next 2-3 months or earlier, and it was back on the cards for me - but definitely still a scary thought O.o

 

[Carryline]

I wish you the best and hope you willfind the peace

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

may you find peace

 

[braintorture]

How are you psyching yourself up for partial? I thought of it when I was younger, but in practice, it seemed too agonizing (unless I did it wrong?), so I chickened out. I'm considering ctb for within the next 2-3 months or earlier, and it was back on the cards for me - but definitely still a scary thought O.o

I'm in pain all the time and I can't really do anything else… so i think about the peace not the present moment

 

[OliverGarden]

I'm in pain all the time and I can't really do anything else… so i think about the peace not the present moment

I've been suicidal since my tween years, and at 19 now I'm finally starting to see the light like you are. If things go well, maybe we'll see each other soon! I'd love to know more about who you were, if we did. Good luck, friend. <3

 

[braintorture]

I've been a good soul and person. I hope I'll see heaven and you one day! :)

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Sorry you are in so much pain all the time. Is there a good place to hang in the forest? thread link
I hope it goes well and you find your peace anyway

 

[Dinnerwith6]

Sorry :(

 

[Macedonian1987]

I hope you are free from whatever has tormented you so much. I wish nothing but love and happiness to find you on the other side.

I too will ctb in a year or two. I'm just sick of living in chronic pain, all alone all the time in a world I never felt like I belonged into.

 

[madameviolette]

The place looks beautiful

 

[braintorture]

Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked
See you in the zoo

 

[Terrible_Life]

Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked

I am so sorry fuck that son of a bitch who called the cops . Why the hell couldn't he just accept someone's wish to free himself.
Why people have to stick their nose in things thats not their fucking business?! Go fuck off enjoy your Christmas holiday instead of turning the painful life of an innocent person into a much worse hell scenario now with psych ward……

Stay strong !!

 

[madameviolette]

Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked
See you in the zoo

That could have gone so terribly wrong. If they had found you 20 minutes in and you ended up like that British guy in a vegetative state but still aware

I'm sorry hope you're ok

 

[braintorture]

Epic fail lol (I'm so fucked). They knew it was me immediately. I think I was declared as a missing person. The cops and backup got here too. I think they were already searching for me…

I hope I didn't get too much brain damage LMAO. I'm getting hospitalized… I hope I'll keep my phone :c

Barely no signal can't send pics but I'll do when I have more signal

 

[Carryline]

Well that really sad .. I hope my next attemt will not end up the same way...
Also i never underestand the prychic wards like somehow that magicly let help you

 

[Parnate]

I am so sorry life has come to this, lots of love and hugs . Whatever you choose we support you and stand by you.

 

[braintorture]

Someone (me) is not seeing my freedom back unless these fuckers really help me this time or something
im so mad

Anyways the cops and all knew I think I was declared missing

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

It's really outrageous that you are treated like this just because you want to leave the world... Tell them you were confused at that time but now you are alright.

 

[madameviolette]

Someone (me) is not seeing my freedom back unless these fuckers really help me this time or something
im so mad

Anyways the cops and all knew I think I was declared missing

Attends mais t'es français ? LOL

le point positif c'est qu'ils devraient te faire sortir rapidement de l'hôpital psy. Il y a pas de places généralement

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer like that, it truly is the most horrific, dreadful world where suicide is a crime with humans imprisoning others in this existence against their wishes, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

damn what a turn of events...

 

[Unlucky777]

WTF I'm so sorry to hear that. Son of a bitch. I hope you find the peace you seek

 

[braintorture]

Dude they fucking locked me up… I'm starting to feel like shit already… I barely have signal too

I'm so fucking mad man. I should have probably done it at night

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

 

[dalemar]

I am so sorry that this happened.
If you were truly going after your will, this is so sad.
I hope you can find your peace as soon as possible.