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ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
219
I was going to kill myself the day my twin died but now I know I can't wait until then.
There's alcohol and knives and belts and saws and a lot of other stuff I can use. I know I'm being impulsive but since the gun is gone I'm desperate and I'm so ready to die and just fade away to nothingness forever. I don't care that people are going to "miss" me I don't care that they'll be "sad" I don't care that this is "selfish" according to my mother I DON'T CARE AND I JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE DYING SOUNDS LIKE THE ONLY REAL FUN THING LEFT
I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE
Maybe in my note I can make a joke about seesaws if I cut my carotid artery with a saw or maybe that's too fucked up I don't know anymore
Maybe I shouldn't even leave a note they're never good enough anyway
Who knows things might be over soon
We'll see
 
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rhiino

rhiino

Arcanist
May 13, 2020
486
In my mind the only selfish thing is to stop somebody who wants to end his suffering from doing so because of your own interests.
 
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ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
219
In my mind the only selfish thing is to stop somebody who wants to end his suffering from doing so because of your own interests.
i think this a lot too
thank you for understanding
 

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