Can’t stand how ugly I am, that alone is a reason for CTB

[Siamese Believe]

I genuinely don't even know what to say that I wouldn't have summarized already. But it's just so frustrating. I hate even looking in the mirror, man it makes me so angry. I can't wait to destroy this body.

Sometimes I wish I could train and learn how to box so I could fight my dad for having unprotected sex.

 

[Kiryu6877]

I feel the exact same as you. Hate my face, fucking hate looking at the mirror or cameras, hate being alone because of my looks.
And the worst thing is, my sister is very pretty and low inhib. The fact that we are children from the same parents and she is totally different from me makes me mad.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I'm a monster. Fortunately I tend to forget what I look like. If I had to see myself all day I'd be dead by now.

 

[Peckokama]

I am short, 5'6 in the Balkans. Only "hope" is Limb Lengthening Surgery - too depressed to strive for that, and besides, I am to spend a huge amount of money other people would spend on enjoyment, a car, and other stuff, in order to extend my limbs just to not be treated as an inferior.

 

[Kiryu6877]

I am short, 5'6 in the Balkans. Only "hope" is Limb Lengthening Surgery - too depressed to strive for that, and besides, I am to spend a huge amount of money other people would spend on enjoyment, a car, and other stuff, in order to extend my limbs just to not be treated as an inferior.

Man, if I was short I'd never consider LL surgery unless I was rich.

 

[Gangrel]

Oh i feel so fucking disgusting most of the time, like a fucking monster, big reason to why i am like this lol

 

[cakedog]

same i'm fucking hideous both inside and outside
it really makes me hate myself

 

[Gangrel]

same i'm fucking hideous both inside and outside
it really makes me hate myself

At least your username is cute

 

[cheaptrick]

I'm short and physically ugly. However I could probably tolerate those unfortunate qualities if it wasn't for the fact I was sickly as well. Being in constant physical pain followed by the need to mask it for the comfort of others is unbearable.

 

[executed]

same, not even lefort 2 is saving me at this point

 

[somethingisntreal]

Looking at myself in the mirror makes me crave a horrific, painful death. If I look like this right now i don't even want to think how I'm gonna look when my body is rotting. I need something which can get rid of this flesh prison completely. Something like self immolation. I want to see this filthy meat burn to ashes. Only then I could be at peace.

 

[socksnsandles]

if it makes you feel better, id rather be ugly as fuck than chronically in pain.

 

[dontsaveher]

if it makes you feel better, id rather be ugly as fuck than chronically in pain.

Imagine being cursed with both lmao

 

[NoHorizon]

I relate to hating looking in the mirror. I try to avoid it as much as possible. I close my eyes when I'm brushing my teeth in front of the mirror. Sometimes, if I haven't looked in the mirror for quite a while, I forget a little how ugly I am and then it shocks me when I remember I have a facial abnormality.

 

[darksouls]

I dont own a mirror

 

[dontsaveher]

Me when I accidentally catch a glimpse of my reflection:

 

[kuroshimi]

I used to be very insecure about my appearance. I've changed an attitude towards myself a little bit now, but still thinks I'm somewhat ugly.

 

[darksouls]

Imagine being cursed with both lmao

I am cursed with both
and since the sepsis and the amputation I look like Frankensteins monster

 

[dontsaveher]

I am cursed with both
and since the sepsis and the amputation I look like Frankensteins monster

Me too, there is no such thing as hitting rock bottom in this life, it can always get worse

I'm sorry you're experiencing pain, sounds awful but I'm sure you don't look like a monster, we are our own worst critics

 

[zdeweilx]

Can relate
Seeing a reflection of myself is enough to make my day even more painful than it already was

 

[cait_sith]

I didn't look too bad when I was young but my autism and bad self-Image kept me single all my life, it was often years later I realized that there were instances of girls showing interest in me but I was too dumb to realize or I thought they were joking which is very painful now that I am old. I am writing this in the hope that people might feel solance in the fact that looks aren't everything if they are wasted on a person that has no skills to use that advantage, especially for men.

 

[PI3.14]

I am short, 5'6 in the Balkans. Only "hope" is Limb Lengthening Surgery - too depressed to strive for that, and besides, I am to spend a huge amount of money other people would spend on enjoyment, a car, and other stuff, in order to extend my limbs just to not be treated as an inferior.

Same problem as you, I'm 164cm.

Tbh, like the other member said, unless you're extremely rich to do the surgery with the top surgeons in the world, I wouldn't risk it.

It's unfortunately the reason I suffer from severe BDD, and among my top reasons for wanting to CTB

 

[Happy Cat]

I'm also really ugly. I'm 19 and I still don't know how to do makeup. As much as I want a boyfriend I just have to accept that no man would ever want a ugly woman as a girlfriend (even if they're just as ugly themselves)

 

[suicidesergal]

I am short, 5'6 in the Balkans. Only "hope" is Limb Lengthening Surgery - too depressed to strive for that, and besides, I am to spend a huge amount of money other people would spend on enjoyment, a car, and other stuff, in order to extend my limbs just to not be treated as an inferior.

That's a very... backwards way of seeing it. You have the option to improve but won't because others don't need to? Explain. Why should you not take care of yourself and be who you desire to be?