Fuck everyone who says to put yourself out there and take initiative every single person turns me down. I just get ignored i feel like people see me as an annoying freak. God am I really so offputting and strange? Asked my coworker if he wanted to go to a carnival because i literally have no friends and work is the only social interaction I get. He said hed get back to me before the shift ends but he never did and just left i cant believe I just make people uncomfortable. Fuck my parents for homeschooling me now im struggling to even find a single friend or person who fucks with me the tiniest amount. If they didnt id have an established friend circle and wouldnt have missed out on the teenage experience. Im putting them in my note I dont care they should know what they did. It's okay im finally trying opioids tonight and all my problems will melt away and ill be happy for even a little bit.
Damn I'm sorry, when I was able to work my full-time job my coworkers would act similarly except one I was able to hang out with once.
A lot of them would be one-dimensional and would act different about other people but I would go on and on about the same topic which they probably got tired of.
I would keep your expectations low and focus on yourself.
I have to do so, currently have a friend group who I would love to hangout with but I can't see well enough to do the hobbies they want myself to do.
I had to be honest and state until I get a cure or something else happens I need to take a break.
It's even harder now because I can hardly see the person in my visual field unless I close an eye and even then it's blurry.
When you can't see well, it's harder to relate to others because my old hobbies are inaccessible i.e. reading books, watching television, movies, playing videogames and so on.
I don't invest my time in relationships that won't lead to an improvement for my condition and the household, it's pointless.
To be fair, it's most likely because I'm going through a lot medically but that's how I truly feel.
