can't believe how damn complicated and difficult I made my suicide

[Terrible_Life]

I can't believe how damn complicated and difficult I made my suicide like wtf I see the hanging videos and they just do it they didn't plan anything they use a scarf and do full hanging and die yet here I am I planned absolutely everything and now what? Now the fucking wether will be very bad here tomorrow therefore I can't ctb on my chosen date….is this a joke!? I feel so fooled , I am so ready to die and then this shit happens:(
Gosh I wish I was never born or at least that there'd be a button we could press to die
I am so suicidal if there'd be nembutal on my desk I'd just take it and die

 

[DreamsOfNothing]

Yeah… I get what you mean. It seems like there's a lot of people that hang themselves without much research and then end up being successful anyway. It like people in school that say they didn't study and still end up getting a high grade. While there's others that study a lot and still fail. Anyways, I hope you can make peace with whatever decision you end up making. I wish you all the best.

 

[UnoX48]

Of course. Many people here overthink things. It doesn't matter what the support is (rope, scarf, electrical cable). The type of knot doesn't matter. As long as the knot is strong and tight enough around the neck, it will be effective. (That's just my opinion.)

 

[Terrible_Life]

Yeah… I get what you mean. It seems like there's a lot of people that hang themselves without much research and then end up being successful anyway. It like people in school that say they didn't study and still end up getting a high grade. While there's others that study a lot and still fail. Anyways, I hope you can make peace with whatever decision you end up making. I wish you all the best.

The thing that reallly pisses me off right now is that my situation is absolutely unbearable now it is horribly painful and I wanna die but now I am afraid that the bad wether could influence the stability of my anchor point….

 

[A_Lost_Feeling]

The thing that reallly pisses me off right now is that my situation is absolutely unbearable now it is horribly painful and I wanna die but now I am afraid that the bad wether could influence the stability of my anchor point….

sorry to hear about your situation, do you mind me asking about the anchor point and why the weather would affect it?

 

[Terrible_Life]

sorry to hear about your situation, do you mind me asking about the anchor point and why the weather would affect it?

The anchor point is the wood beam in the attic of our house. I'm afraid that strong wind + rain/snow will weaken the beam maybe its just paranoia but still full hanging is something where you definitely don't want to fail….just the thoughts about waking up in a hospital terrifies me so much and then you open your eyes in the hospital bed and all of a sudden you feel ernormous pain or maybe you are so destroyed to the point where your cognitive functions are gone idk really scary thing to fail full hanging especially when you hang fully for lets say 8-10 minutes and then your anchor breaks or whatever

 

[Exhausted546]

I can't believe how damn complicated and difficult I made my suicide like wtf I see the hanging videos and they just do it they didn't plan anything they use a scarf and do full hanging and die yet here I am I planned absolutely everything and now what? Now the fucking wether will be very bad here tomorrow therefore I can't ctb on my chosen date….is this a joke!? I feel so fooled , I am so ready to die and then this shit happens:(
Gosh I wish I was never born or at least that there'd be a button we could press to die
I am so suicidal if there'd be nembutal on my desk I'd just take it and die

Where are you planning to hang? I decided against doing it at home so I'm going to do it outside.

I have a few worries that come with doing it in the woods though. So maybe a motel

 

[madameviolette]

The thing that reallly pisses me off right now is that my situation is absolutely unbearable now it is horribly painful and I wanna die but now I am afraid that the bad wether could influence the stability of my anchor point….

What condition do you have ?

 

[Terrible_Life]

Where are you planning to hang? I decided against doing it at home so I'm going to do it outside.

I have a few worries that come with doing it in the woods though. So maybe a motel

Hi I'll do it on the woodbeam in the attic of the house. I can not go to any motel and I don't wanna do it in the woods its way too risky in my opinion.

What condition do you have ?

I suffer from horrible unbearable mental pain

 

[impossible_victory]

It is the biggest decision of your life. It has to be complicated

 

[urgent]

The thing that reallly pisses me off right now is that my situation is absolutely unbearable now it is horribly painful and I wanna die but now I am afraid that the bad wether could influence the stability of my anchor point….

You have more guts than me. I'm desperate to stop the excruciating unbearable pain I'm in 24/7 It's so painful to eat, drink, even breathe but I'm to ill to go anywhere I wish I could find N or some kind of meds. I'm sorry your in pain too. I don't think anyone understands how much pain I'm in.