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before20

before20

I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me
Jan 28, 2025
119
Heard SDT is from the PPH; can anyone verify that it is legit SN, or should I buy two sets so I can test one of them?

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On another, more personal note, I'd honestly been debating whether I should really take it this month. At the very least, even if it isn't "before 20" like I want to, CTBing at the end of the summer would mean I could enjoy the good weather & a couple of movie releases I've been looking forward to.

That is, until my father called me a bad person - inconsiderate, rude, selfish, he went on - to my face, pretty much unprovoked, and I remembered, oh, yeah, if I'm such a stain on this planet, I should remove myself from it ASAP. Maybe that makes me emotionally volatile, but guess that's why I'm on here.

Sometimes I entertain the idea of letting him know on my note that he was a deciding factor in shortening my time here on this Earth, but I don't think I'm that cruel, lol. At most I'll probably leave a small passage for my cousins absolving them of guilt - or maybe something as short and sweet as, "don't take it personally".

Anyways. Thanks again, SS, for being the only place I can truly speak freely.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,947
Personally, I don't think that anyone elses words or actions should bring about, or dictate, when someone else ctb. That's giving that someone else way too much power, thereby weakening the inherency of autonomy.

Sorry, can't help on SDT.
 

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