missporcelain
Member
- Sep 24, 2023
- 12
I am reaching a breaking point. Nocturnal seizures won't let up. My heart feels shattered in more ways than one. I am afraid my benzos and medications not suffice, I'm afraid of heights, but if I could hold someone's hand, I might jump. Want is the fastest, most painless way to die?
I've been trying all the things - praying more, talking my brains out, sitting with my feelings, therapy in the past, counseling in the past, checking myself into a mental health facility in the past - but the bleakness and hopelessness of the world, the constant heartbreak, the constant seizures at night affecting sleep, the constant racing and intrusive thoughts…it just doesn't feel like any ounce of hope is worth it.
I've been trying all the things - praying more, talking my brains out, sitting with my feelings, therapy in the past, counseling in the past, checking myself into a mental health facility in the past - but the bleakness and hopelessness of the world, the constant heartbreak, the constant seizures at night affecting sleep, the constant racing and intrusive thoughts…it just doesn't feel like any ounce of hope is worth it.
