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LevUwU

LevUwU

I hate my life and the government
Mar 16, 2024
190
I hate the constant feeling of impending abandonment. The constant ANGER at everyone and everything around me. I have whats called 'Quiet BPD' so all of it is internalized. I don't lash out. The constant internal hate though is unbearable. I feel like all my friends will leave me and that I constantly need to fight. It's like fight or flight for everything all while I never seem to know how I feel while somehow still always feeling empty
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,084
I have BPD too. It's hell on Earth. It's one of the worst and most agonizing disorders I have. The stigma also sucks really bad.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,736
*waves from push-people-away-or-cling-extra-tight-and-then-wonder-why-they-leave corner*
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,391
I understand you. I also feel that I struggle every day to be happy or whatever it's called.
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

death wont return my calls
Mar 20, 2023
642
I am not diagnosed because I can't afford to go see the therapist even once, but this is pretty much me. I constantly worry and fear every social interaction I get into and basically assume the absolute worst about how people feel about me. I pretty much think eventually everyone hates me and I deserve to fuck off and be alone forever. I hate it.
 
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Toobrokentofix

Toobrokentofix

Experienced
Jul 7, 2020
244
I also have quiet bpd n find it interoperable
 
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heisenberg

heisenberg

zzzzzzz
May 18, 2020
220
i also have bpd, these feelings make me miserable. everything is always felt in extremes. i wish i didn't constantly feel like im unwanted
 
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Dark Window

Dark Window

Forest Wanderer
Mar 12, 2024
547
I do strongly believe that BPD is just a form of PTSD tbh. The way I see Borderlines act is either

1) Very similar to someone with PTSD/C-PTSD
2) Very similar to someone who with NPD.

I genuinely believe people diagnosed with BPD either PTSD sufferers or Narcs, because the behaviour and experiences are the same as either of these two.

Not say I know this, but it's actually a theory that's starting to become popular.

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Can I ask you people with BPD, what is it that actually puts you at ease when you are around people? What makes you happy?
 
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tbroken

tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
690
I do strongly believe that BPD is just a form of PTSD tbh. The way I see Borderlines act is either

1) Very similar to someone with PTSD/C-PTSD
2) Very similar to someone who with NPD.

I genuinely believe people diagnosed with BPD either PTSD sufferers or Narcs, because the behaviour and experiences are the same as either of these two.

Not say I know this, but it's actually a theory that's starting to become popular.

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Can I ask you people with BPD, what is it that actually puts you at ease when you are around people? What makes you happy?
In my case, even if i don't show, pretty women that care about me or ppl that are the same or better/stronger than me.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,736
I do strongly believe that BPD is just a form of PTSD tbh. The way I see Borderlines act is either

1) Very similar to someone with PTSD/C-PTSD
2) Very similar to someone who with NPD.

I genuinely believe people diagnosed with BPD either PTSD sufferers or Narcs, because the behaviour and experiences are the same as either of these two.

Not say I know this, but it's actually a theory that's starting to become popular.

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Can I ask you people with BPD, what is it that actually puts you at ease when you are around people? What makes you happy?
I'm don't have any medical/psychological knowledge but I have BPD/EUPD and PTSD. It's a bit of a generalisation but the BPD is about what's happening in the present moment. The PTSD is about events that happened in the past that made such an impact that I'm forced to relive them. They're not the same thing as you can have one but not the other though you're partly right that BPD is frequently associated with some sort of trauma in childhood.
 
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BriocheAlien

BriocheAlien

Member
Mar 28, 2024
17
Also have BPD. I wouldnt wish this shit on my worst enemy. There are days I want to rip my brain out of my head and throw it into a bonfire... I just can't continue living like this anymore.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
I do strongly believe that BPD is just a form of PTSD tbh. The way I see Borderlines act is either

1) Very similar to someone with PTSD/C-PTSD
2) Very similar to someone who with NPD.

I genuinely believe people diagnosed with BPD either PTSD sufferers or Narcs, because the behaviour and experiences are the same as either of these two.

Not say I know this, but it's actually a theory that's starting to become popular.

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Can I ask you people with BPD, what is it that actually puts you at ease when you are around people? What makes you happy?
How do people with PTSD/C-PTSD and people with NPD act?
 

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